There I was, Here I stand....
Well now. Here I sit at the lovely Laptop and find myself back here at LJ...
Since last time I checked in, I have done a lot of thinking....and we all know that that only happens when I am doing one of three things:
1) Gaming
2) Reading/being by my lonesome
and 3) Helping People
Guess what! I was Killing Zombies and Reading!!!! lol.
Anyways, Back to the point of this story, As I was reading an amazing book By R.A. Salvatore called "Sojourn" ,which is the Third in the Legend of Drizzt series, I came to the concultion that I was/am Losing my sense of self. or at least I had been feeling that way.
Due to the events since my family decided way back in the summer of '06, with my family going more than our usuall crazy, my foolish attempt to stay there, Sondra and myself having a massive fallout/get back togeather/fallout ect, my family moving, countless failed attemps to move back and gawd knows what else (well I do but really dont want or need to say more about it) I kinda packed alot of who I am away in a dark almost none accessable place in my head, only to be let out when I was arround my friends on Trips to Calgary and Seattle,ect.
So to take over this void of "none me-ness" I took up sewing, Metal and woodworking, and who knows what else to keep me going while fighting many battles on all fronts. My wants, Needs, and I dont cares conflicted while other ppls wants for me added to the mayhem(and still are).
Now I would like to tell you what I found looking over the last 20.5 years of my life...(hopefully in a short...er form).
People and I get along. Weather it be because I am Charming, Charismatic, Handsome or just because you Ppl are all foolish enough to like a bastard like me for some other reason, It seems to be that overall ppl and me get along usually pretty good.
I like Fantasy. Weather it be book, film, tv, cartoon or anime, it really doesnt matter. I enjoy being caught up in the fun-filled, action-packed lives of ppl that dont exist. lol guess thats why i like acting because i like playing those roles as well as reading them.
Family carries me when needed. My family as crazy and annoying and no matter how much they have pissed me off, yelled at me, drove me of the wall, has always been there to carry me and pick me up when I fall or lose my way.
Friends, by whatever god you believe in, you Jerks make it all worth-while! If it wasnt for all of those that have been there for me I wouldnt know shit all about life. you guys showed me how to have fun, where to see things I totally wouldnt have seen, and do some shit I will never do again lol.
I know this is long...and im sorry just really feel like Writing....
Love...well so far love kinda pisses me off...because I look and hope for it, but it doesnt come...so i stop looking and guess what...still not coming along...lol yeah thats about it on that subject...PS love isnt blind...its retarded! lol jkjk
Life is full of shit and we have to take it as it comes. I have been through alot by my standards...which is pretty much fuck all compared to some. but hey its helped me a bit...just a bit...
anyways i know this entry sounds like one of those lame emails you get every once in a while... but yeah.
Nightz,
Andrew J. Nagy
Since last time I checked in, I have done a lot of thinking....and we all know that that only happens when I am doing one of three things:
1) Gaming
2) Reading/being by my lonesome
and 3) Helping People
Guess what! I was Killing Zombies and Reading!!!! lol.
Anyways, Back to the point of this story, As I was reading an amazing book By R.A. Salvatore called "Sojourn" ,which is the Third in the Legend of Drizzt series, I came to the concultion that I was/am Losing my sense of self. or at least I had been feeling that way.
Due to the events since my family decided way back in the summer of '06, with my family going more than our usuall crazy, my foolish attempt to stay there, Sondra and myself having a massive fallout/get back togeather/fallout ect, my family moving, countless failed attemps to move back and gawd knows what else (well I do but really dont want or need to say more about it) I kinda packed alot of who I am away in a dark almost none accessable place in my head, only to be let out when I was arround my friends on Trips to Calgary and Seattle,ect.
So to take over this void of "none me-ness" I took up sewing, Metal and woodworking, and who knows what else to keep me going while fighting many battles on all fronts. My wants, Needs, and I dont cares conflicted while other ppls wants for me added to the mayhem(and still are).
Now I would like to tell you what I found looking over the last 20.5 years of my life...(hopefully in a short...er form).
People and I get along. Weather it be because I am Charming, Charismatic, Handsome or just because you Ppl are all foolish enough to like a bastard like me for some other reason, It seems to be that overall ppl and me get along usually pretty good.
I like Fantasy. Weather it be book, film, tv, cartoon or anime, it really doesnt matter. I enjoy being caught up in the fun-filled, action-packed lives of ppl that dont exist. lol guess thats why i like acting because i like playing those roles as well as reading them.
Family carries me when needed. My family as crazy and annoying and no matter how much they have pissed me off, yelled at me, drove me of the wall, has always been there to carry me and pick me up when I fall or lose my way.
Friends, by whatever god you believe in, you Jerks make it all worth-while! If it wasnt for all of those that have been there for me I wouldnt know shit all about life. you guys showed me how to have fun, where to see things I totally wouldnt have seen, and do some shit I will never do again lol.
I know this is long...and im sorry just really feel like Writing....
Love...well so far love kinda pisses me off...because I look and hope for it, but it doesnt come...so i stop looking and guess what...still not coming along...lol yeah thats about it on that subject...PS love isnt blind...its retarded! lol jkjk
Life is full of shit and we have to take it as it comes. I have been through alot by my standards...which is pretty much fuck all compared to some. but hey its helped me a bit...just a bit...
anyways i know this entry sounds like one of those lame emails you get every once in a while... but yeah.
Nightz,
Andrew J. Nagy