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Ugh. I'm kinda drained by life right now. I dunno.
I hate when things just aren't right. Something is just not clicking. I don't know, nor do I really understand all that well.
I guess that I am incredibly picky about who I choose to surround myself by, and for the people that I do choose to be around, I have high standards.
And then the people that I choose to allow even closer...well, I'm downright tough on them.
Ugh. I hate myself for being a perfectionist. I pick out flaws and then I drive myself nuts about them. I don't like change.
V_V Change is bad. But love is good.
Well, I don't have love. But maybe I'll have love. I wouldn't mind some love. Erm. Maybe not...*sigh*
I just hate myself for trying to make everyone into the person I want them to be. I hate that I can't like people for who they are...
I hate having to lie to people. V_V
And hiding...that's bad, too. I just want to find the highest mountaintop and scream.
Well, maybe not now. It's raining, and I don't like storms.
Ugh. I NEED TO FREAKIN' TALK ABOUT ALL OF THIS AND I CAN'T AND THAT IS DRIVING ME NUTS...
I hate when things just aren't right. Something is just not clicking. I don't know, nor do I really understand all that well.
I guess that I am incredibly picky about who I choose to surround myself by, and for the people that I do choose to be around, I have high standards.
And then the people that I choose to allow even closer...well, I'm downright tough on them.
Ugh. I hate myself for being a perfectionist. I pick out flaws and then I drive myself nuts about them. I don't like change.
V_V Change is bad. But love is good.
Well, I don't have love. But maybe I'll have love. I wouldn't mind some love. Erm. Maybe not...*sigh*
I just hate myself for trying to make everyone into the person I want them to be. I hate that I can't like people for who they are...
I hate having to lie to people. V_V
And hiding...that's bad, too. I just want to find the highest mountaintop and scream.
Well, maybe not now. It's raining, and I don't like storms.
Ugh. I NEED TO FREAKIN' TALK ABOUT ALL OF THIS AND I CAN'T AND THAT IS DRIVING ME NUTS...