well screw that!
Damn it! 'Caitlyn can't do everything.' Well neither can I!! I'm trying to piece together something akin to an actual life here and don't know where to begin. To have more pieces falling off of what's been cobbled together massively sucks.
That I can handle though; there will probably be a few more ridiculous displays of emotion but anyone who pays attention already knew that. I've known for too long that I've been more of a hanger-on than a friend but that used to suffice. I'm going to learn to be more present and interesting and dynamic but it will take time. I just detest being spoken to as though I am making a stream of unreasonable demands after having done nothing for the other person because that's untrue.
But I'm not going to worry about that anymore. Too much energy has been wasted already. If a person doesn't care enough to recognize my existence anymore then that's okay; it's not my fault, and they'll be better off without me anyway.
So I'm done. Through! No more pretending. I'll learn how to amuse myself and become comfortable alone... but until then, this is pretty much all I'm going to write about... boo!
That I can handle though; there will probably be a few more ridiculous displays of emotion but anyone who pays attention already knew that. I've known for too long that I've been more of a hanger-on than a friend but that used to suffice. I'm going to learn to be more present and interesting and dynamic but it will take time. I just detest being spoken to as though I am making a stream of unreasonable demands after having done nothing for the other person because that's untrue.
But I'm not going to worry about that anymore. Too much energy has been wasted already. If a person doesn't care enough to recognize my existence anymore then that's okay; it's not my fault, and they'll be better off without me anyway.
So I'm done. Through! No more pretending. I'll learn how to amuse myself and become comfortable alone... but until then, this is pretty much all I'm going to write about... boo!