Affection and Forever
I realized something yesterday...
As much as there`s a part of me wonders what will come of my current situation with this new... companion of sorts, I don`t think I`ll need it to go somewhere.
I`m happy now, even if he`s holding out for or on to someone else. I have him now, he seems to enjoy things now, and that`s all that should and does matter.
As much as you want to have someone and-or their love forever, if you think about it, it`s unattainable. We don`t live forever. If there`s an after life and we get to be happy there, then forever maybe possible, but we don`t even know what comes after all of this.
We have to enjoy it now. There`s no point in keeping yourself miserable.
Still, I can`t help but wonder if I`m doing the wrong things just to get those moments of affection.
Then I can`t help but notice how depressing that may actually be...
An Afterthought:
I hate how part of me lives for those moments of affection...
As much as there`s a part of me wonders what will come of my current situation with this new... companion of sorts, I don`t think I`ll need it to go somewhere.
I`m happy now, even if he`s holding out for or on to someone else. I have him now, he seems to enjoy things now, and that`s all that should and does matter.
As much as you want to have someone and-or their love forever, if you think about it, it`s unattainable. We don`t live forever. If there`s an after life and we get to be happy there, then forever maybe possible, but we don`t even know what comes after all of this.
We have to enjoy it now. There`s no point in keeping yourself miserable.
Still, I can`t help but wonder if I`m doing the wrong things just to get those moments of affection.
Then I can`t help but notice how depressing that may actually be...
An Afterthought:
I hate how part of me lives for those moments of affection...