catchphrase
so, i found this catchprase that instantly makes me feel better in a sick, morbid kind of way: "if you were gonna die tomorrow, what would you do today?" i had that thought, and snap, i found it again, just like that. found what? that thing, that strange thing that i lost for a long while and couldnt find again. hope. happiness. the ability to look forward to today. and tomorrow. i dunno, maybe its just other things, but i feel like ive just been slightly off kilter lately, swingin back and forth on a see saw and all of sudden, i found some balance. i just gotta keep myself there. and with how changeable i am, im scared i may fall off the seesaw any minute, but for now i got it. i get it. and im holding onto it. praise jesus.