To whom it may concern...
Sometimes I wonder why I even check my e-mail? I know you'll never read this entry, but perhaps the feeling within will one day remind me of this moment, how I feel, and how silly I am, or perhaps this will always feel this way.
2 Years.
That's how long it's been. Perhaps a bit longer.
You were in and out of my life in such a short time. Never before had anyone made me feel the way you did. Yet never again has anyone made me feel the way you did. Hopefully that's just a yet, and hopefully it wont remain a never.
You were truly my first love.
You made me believe in love at first sight.
I think I made the mistake of seeing you again in May. I think perhaps I would have been fine had I not walked into that place where we agreed to meet, and saw your beautiful smile and your bright blue eyes again. Perhaps I would have been fine had we not kissed again that night.
Perhaps I would have been ok telling myself that in almost 2 years you probably would have forgotten about most of the things I ever told you about me.
But you didn't... In fact you remembered them all. Even the stupid shit. Perhaps the most important thing is you remembered the stupid shit.
Whatever. I miss you, I still love you, and there is still nothing I can do to remedy this except try to move on. I wish that would happen.
Is it too much to ask to fall in love this way again, only to actually have it go my way this time? Probably.
Loves not a competition but I'm winning... At least I thought I was. You know what it's like when you're new to the game... But I'm not.
2 Years.
That's how long it's been. Perhaps a bit longer.
You were in and out of my life in such a short time. Never before had anyone made me feel the way you did. Yet never again has anyone made me feel the way you did. Hopefully that's just a yet, and hopefully it wont remain a never.
You were truly my first love.
You made me believe in love at first sight.
I think I made the mistake of seeing you again in May. I think perhaps I would have been fine had I not walked into that place where we agreed to meet, and saw your beautiful smile and your bright blue eyes again. Perhaps I would have been fine had we not kissed again that night.
Perhaps I would have been ok telling myself that in almost 2 years you probably would have forgotten about most of the things I ever told you about me.
But you didn't... In fact you remembered them all. Even the stupid shit. Perhaps the most important thing is you remembered the stupid shit.
Whatever. I miss you, I still love you, and there is still nothing I can do to remedy this except try to move on. I wish that would happen.
Is it too much to ask to fall in love this way again, only to actually have it go my way this time? Probably.
Loves not a competition but I'm winning... At least I thought I was. You know what it's like when you're new to the game... But I'm not.