Chasing a ghost of a good thing...

Sep 02, 2006 23:10

So I'm back in Virginia right now. Chillin. Been thinking a lot lately about things that make me unhappy.

Things that make me sad/unhappy:

My Body: I'm not fat by any means, but i'm not toned or slightly muscular either. I'm not even in shape, and how hard would that really be? Ok I know, harder than I think.

My Health: I'm mostly healthy for now, but I eat totally wrong. I don't feel good a lot, and I sleep too damn much.

My Mind: I've been out of school now basically for 3 semesters. Community college courses don't count. As Ashleigh pointed out, if I don't go back next semester I'm going to be behind her in school.

My Money: I don't have any. Coming back to Virginia is a temporary solution. I'll probably be here about a month, and then what? Things aren't looking too good right now, and I really need to discuss some stuff with Ash.

So, I've been thinking of all the things I can do to change what makes me unhappy for the moment.

Body: I can start Jogging every day, I mean I have an iPod now, why not? I can maybe start lifting some small weights, and doing a lot of sit-ups, push-ups and pull-ups.

Health: I need to throw more fruits and veggies into the mix. Less Fast food and less shit out of a box. I need to stop drinking soda, and as much as I fucking hate it, only drink water. If I feel like breaking into something else gatorade, juices, and occasionally sprite/sierra mist are ok.

Mind: I need to read more, and more educating stuff. I need to actively participate in learning. Maybe start early on Computer Science or just fucking reading something educational. God even study math or something. I also want to start writing songs. I always thought it was something I would like to do, and shit, some of the shit you hear on pop radio, I could write that in my sleep. In order to do this I need to learn an instrument though. Kyle is so gonna fucking teach me guitar. That homo. I really want to practice. To learn. It will be good for me. Make me feel good about something. I'm fucking smart and I'm letting it go to waste. FUCK! January I better be in school too. :)

Money: What can I really do about this? This is the worst one because I constantly worry about it. Just hope for the best. Maybe my parents will win the lottery and set me up for the next 5 years or so. Lol.

"For all the wounds that are never gonna scar me"

"If I fall..."

I've made shit things like this before "I really need to change" blah Blah. But this time I'm really gonna do it. OK!

Ready! Break!
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