sick and tired..
People don't understand me.. fuck, i don't even understand myself half the time.. take for example, today.. this afternoon, i was taking a nap in my room, minding my own biznash, when my little sister comes barging in, yelling "Chi! Pa is calling you!!" okay.. so i'm up in about 2 seconds.. after that rude awakening, i started heading down the stairs towards my dad, who, at that time, was sitting in front of our computer monitor, fuming for i-don't-know-what-the-hell-for AGAIN.. he then looks at me the same way he normally does, brow furrowed, eyes narrowed..
'Damn.. wtf did i do wrong this time...?'
"CHI.. I WANT THIS STUPID GAME OFF OF THE COMPUTER NOW.. WE'VE ONLY HAD THIS COMPUTER FOR A MONTH AND ITS ALREADY BROKEN! HOW DO YOU DELETE IT??"
I was too stunned to say anything.. after threatening me that he'd delete the game for a few weeks now, i didn't think he'd actually go and do it.. so there i am, watching as my dad horridly fumbled with the mouse to open My Computer. A few seconds later, he hit the delete key which broke my heart a second time within a year.. why?? WHY? WHY THE FUCK DID HE DO IT??? I WAS JUST RESTING FOR GOD DAMN SAKE!!.. WHAT DID I EVER DO TO HIM??..
Yeah.. so thats the end of my life as i know it.. haha.. kidding..
Apparently, my two little younger siblings had a feud on who was going to use the PC next and he handles the problem in the BEST way possible.. deleting the game.. pshh.. there goes another thing in my life that i grew to care about..
I KNOW ITS A JUST FUCKING GAME.. but its the only fucking thing that has put up with me.. the only thing that doesn't NAG or BITCH at me.. it doesn't CANCEL the times that we set a date or COMPLAIN how i look that day.. its the only thing that showed PROMISE to me.. the only thing that made me SMILE when i was depressed.. and now its gone.. just like the other hundreds of damned things in my life that have come to pass.. just GONE.. like that.. with a press of a fucking button..
Its just a game., its just a game., its just a game.. FUCK.. no its not.. its practically become my best friend..
Good things aren't meant to last..right? well i say BULLSHIT.. the world is FUCKED UP and CRUEL..
Now i really am alone... ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?
'Damn.. wtf did i do wrong this time...?'
"CHI.. I WANT THIS STUPID GAME OFF OF THE COMPUTER NOW.. WE'VE ONLY HAD THIS COMPUTER FOR A MONTH AND ITS ALREADY BROKEN! HOW DO YOU DELETE IT??"
I was too stunned to say anything.. after threatening me that he'd delete the game for a few weeks now, i didn't think he'd actually go and do it.. so there i am, watching as my dad horridly fumbled with the mouse to open My Computer. A few seconds later, he hit the delete key which broke my heart a second time within a year.. why?? WHY? WHY THE FUCK DID HE DO IT??? I WAS JUST RESTING FOR GOD DAMN SAKE!!.. WHAT DID I EVER DO TO HIM??..
Yeah.. so thats the end of my life as i know it.. haha.. kidding..
Apparently, my two little younger siblings had a feud on who was going to use the PC next and he handles the problem in the BEST way possible.. deleting the game.. pshh.. there goes another thing in my life that i grew to care about..
I KNOW ITS A JUST FUCKING GAME.. but its the only fucking thing that has put up with me.. the only thing that doesn't NAG or BITCH at me.. it doesn't CANCEL the times that we set a date or COMPLAIN how i look that day.. its the only thing that showed PROMISE to me.. the only thing that made me SMILE when i was depressed.. and now its gone.. just like the other hundreds of damned things in my life that have come to pass.. just GONE.. like that.. with a press of a fucking button..
Its just a game., its just a game., its just a game.. FUCK.. no its not.. its practically become my best friend..
Good things aren't meant to last..right? well i say BULLSHIT.. the world is FUCKED UP and CRUEL..
Now i really am alone... ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?