reflecting as of late

[moogle2623]

Okay, so.."Hey wats up, Hows life been" has been a very popular question being asked. Now i have also been told wow u are so lucky for having left Baldwin, I agree im happy i left the drama, but hers the problem and ryan this is the truth and really alot for u so read this thing. i have had such a wierd rush of emotions over here. the biggest one one being fear. I have only left for a week and i wont be back til nov. okay but ive been feeling very od lately. Ive been having bad dreams agian which sucks and i cant shake this fear, i feel very alone here i met a lot of people but its not the same i cant count on them yet to help me if im in troulbe and my biggest worry is that there afre lot of drunks here people that just like to look for fights but i dont have the security of knowing if somthing goes wrong im dont have mom to come and take me to the hospital. its very wierd thought and feeling.but i dont want this to sound like its so bad here there are alot of cool people here and i gues now really all i gotta do is sort out the cool people from the not cool people and i need time but the main point of this is really to say to enjoyyour senior years and enjoy the time you have with your family cause the one thing i miss most is chillemn with johnathan in his room and us all just being chill an as much as i hate baldwin i miss so much of new york. people her can be very wierd especially people from mass. oh yeah and one last thing and this goes out to evryone if i come back and you hear me say wicked r wicked pissa hit me very hard because its a mass thing and it annoys the shit outa me.

baby i miss and love u and i woill ttys

bye all

~paul~