Holy shit, look at this, it's an update
It's nearly one in the morning and I just came back from my aunt's birthday dinner. It's a cold night so we were all gathered in their dining & sitting room, the fire blazing and homemade pizzas coming left and right.
Now, I love them. They're family, I grew up with them, my cousins are so special to me. I wanted to go there today, be with them for a little while.
And still, I feel infinitely more comfortable alone in my room, with my dogs. Part of it is normal, yes. It's MY room, of course this will be the place I'm more comfortable in. But I'm an introvert, a loner, so there is always a part of me that stays tuck away and hidden from view whenever I'm...with anyone, really. Friends, family. I mean, I love them. I love them all without reservations, but when I get home it's like my body gives in a little sigh of relief.
I don't know why I'm saying all this now. It's past 1 am, I'm exhausted. Family health issues aren't that good. I think it's today's exhaustion making me babble.
For now, I am warm in my bed, I have fic in my iPad and I'm about to fall asleep. For now, that's enough.