stupid males
hey my peeps,.....jus so u kno this entry is basicly goin to be full of me venting so if u dont want to listen to me complaining then dont read it ok? ok, glade we have that settled...so yes this hasnt been the best week for me. As some of u kno i have noticed a pattern starting to develope in my relationships that im not completly found of...lets call the fisrt guy jay for his sake ( im savin him cause his wasnt as bad and im over it,...jimmy on the other hand is another story),...jay told me he liked me,..flirted with me then when i was developing feelings for him asked some other girl out and who did i hear this frum? him?? noo of course not i hear it frum his friend,...common u would think he would at least hav the guts to tell me about it i guess i underestimate the male population (there are those FEW who i can trust tho and i want them to kno that i apretiate them very much) and now theres this other dude jimmy who some of u kno about but for the others i will explain i met him at military ball and by the end of the night liked him under the impression that he and his girlfriend had just broken up alil while ago,..so i wasnt supprised when i heard he liked me back but was goin to wait alil while to ask me out cuz he didnt want it to look like a rebound thing wich is perfectly understandable,...stupid me fell for it like i do every time,..well i got his s/n and talked to him and he told me he loved me and all this other stuff and once again i fell for it,...i ended up really liking him,...then i started noticing things in his profile...things like dude zareen makes me scream and zareen,...recieves much love (zareen happens to be his "ex" girlfriend by the way,...and this bothered me but i didnt want to say anything cuz i thought maybe it was just me being paraniod i tried to ignore it,...then i was informed of something by jessica and amelia,....u see taryn who is friends with zareen was talking with her last night and it turns out that jimmy and her are still goin out! now aint that just the kicker?? heh i cant believe he thought i would find out grrrr that makes me sooo angry grrrr then my parents have been fighting about the stupidest things and like alwayz dell has been showin his ass i cant believe some of the nasty things hes been sayin to my mom it makes me soooo mad i want to slap him! and i would if i didnt think he would hurt me back....then to top it all off i have all the stress that normally comes with the holidays AND now we have mid-terms like there isnt enough goin on in my life right now,...do teachers hav like this 6th sense where they can tell the exact time u dont want them to give you a lot of stuff to do so that they can give you a shitload of work or is it just my luck? i think maybe its a combination of both,...well i want to tell all my true friends how much i love u,..and thats with all my heart,....really tho its more,.. i cant even explain it,..you have alwayz been there for me and i want u to kno that i would do the same for you i love you all soooooooo much!!!! ok sorry bout this entry i know u did not really want to hear me complaining so much,....ok and people who complain bout me never updating it look at why?? lol when i start writting i dont stop!! oh well its nice to be able to vent about all this stuff thanx again to my friends i love you!!!!!