couldnt sleep and this was better then staring at my ceiling fan and getting dizy
so yes i cant sleep i should tho cause ive been really tired lately, a lot has been going on in my life the past month or so, my cousin who i grew up with thinking he was my brother is leaving for bootcamp monday to become a marine, im proud of him but scared sumthings goin to happen to him. the whole rifle line thing is stressing me out because im not as good as the other so it takes me longer to get the work and therfore i get yelled at cause he teaches us the work 2 pracrices b4 the freakin compatition, i can do all the work i just cant keep up the tempo tho, i broke up with ben, i just didnt have feelings for him like i did before and i heard he was wanting to break up with me cause he liked gabi and gabi likes him (and ruthlessly pursued him btw) to so i figured id just make things easier for the both of us and end it before things got more complicated, i really dont like gabi tho i mean how angry did she get at me when she found out ben liked me??? and they werent going out at the time plus it wasnt me that sought him it was him who sought me!!! grrr shes such a hypocrite and on her away message its all im in love sigh grrrr,....all my friends are worrying me theyre all so sad and upset lately i mean they all hav reasons to be to but it makes me sad to see them so upset, we all really need a night out to just get away frum it all,......im going to do better in ap,..i have to do better in ap,...i love squirt,...i should go to bed now night yall