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I'm Bummed.
For years, I've wished for occasions where I could dress up, put on some jewelry and a dress and feel girly and feminine. Something special and pretty and feel good. I love watching Project Runway and shows with these people who know how to make a woman feel good about herself no matter her size.
Well, Now I have one. My my friend's 25th is coming up, and he's planning a big party for his house, but some friends want to take him out for a Big Girly Night Out the friday before.
So, I've been shopping online for dresses in my price range (of "god I hope I get a paycheck before then") And coming up disappointed because of the lack of dresses in my size, style, and very specific requirement - I want to wear my tan wedges with the argyle detail.
So I mentioned to mom that I could get a pattern at one of Jo-ann's pattern sales, and use some coupons and be very thrifty and get some fabric that will go nicely with the shoes, and sew my own party dress.
First it was why couldn't I wear my brown skirt that I have. It's ankle length, heavy, and raggedy since it's my go to Renn faire peasant skirt.
Then It was why couldn't I shop for skirts that would be flattering. Or Peasant tops because they "hide a lot of flaws" I think peasant tops make big girls like me look Pregnant.
I just feel bummed. I want to lose weight, but I really don't get a lot of support, every time I want to make something, mom really always poo-poo's it and nothing ever gets done because I can't bring myself to finish.
I know I can't wear a hoochie dress, but why can't I have a cute party dress that's flattering. It's really turned my feelings toward that night negative where it was supposed to be that fun night I've been hoping for for a long time now. Blargh.
For years, I've wished for occasions where I could dress up, put on some jewelry and a dress and feel girly and feminine. Something special and pretty and feel good. I love watching Project Runway and shows with these people who know how to make a woman feel good about herself no matter her size.
Well, Now I have one. My my friend's 25th is coming up, and he's planning a big party for his house, but some friends want to take him out for a Big Girly Night Out the friday before.
So, I've been shopping online for dresses in my price range (of "god I hope I get a paycheck before then") And coming up disappointed because of the lack of dresses in my size, style, and very specific requirement - I want to wear my tan wedges with the argyle detail.
So I mentioned to mom that I could get a pattern at one of Jo-ann's pattern sales, and use some coupons and be very thrifty and get some fabric that will go nicely with the shoes, and sew my own party dress.
First it was why couldn't I wear my brown skirt that I have. It's ankle length, heavy, and raggedy since it's my go to Renn faire peasant skirt.
Then It was why couldn't I shop for skirts that would be flattering. Or Peasant tops because they "hide a lot of flaws" I think peasant tops make big girls like me look Pregnant.
I just feel bummed. I want to lose weight, but I really don't get a lot of support, every time I want to make something, mom really always poo-poo's it and nothing ever gets done because I can't bring myself to finish.
I know I can't wear a hoochie dress, but why can't I have a cute party dress that's flattering. It's really turned my feelings toward that night negative where it was supposed to be that fun night I've been hoping for for a long time now. Blargh.