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[moodswings]

i think the reason why i was such a bitch to him was b/c i didnt wanna get close with anyone or get hurt.. all i kept doing was pushing him away. but instead of me getting hurt it was stevie's heart that was hurting instead of mine.no one wants to get hurt thats why they push away from anything that could hurt them in the slightest way.

when this thing happend on the boat i blammed it all on him even though it wasnt all his fault. i took it all out on him to make myself feel better. but now as i look back on it it's making me feel terrible. i feel sooooooooooo sorry for treating him that way.