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So far my summer holidays has been rather blah. Nothing exciting has really happened. What do I do everyday? Basically I go to work 6 days a week, then I come home, and maybe go out for a coffee with my sis, and then work out. How dull does that make me sound?? Very, yes I know! I haven't really been in the biggest clubbing mood either, I don't know ...lol...I'm always tired or sumthing. All I really wanna do is chill after work and get to see some of my friends that I don't see enough of right now.
So it's been a few weeks after the break up with Jordan. I'm doing well with it considering that the break up was due to him cheating on me with TWO girls. I wont let myself cry over it, because if he's gonna do me wrong like that he's definitely not worth the tears. I know I didn't deserve that, I gave him the most trust and respect a girl friend could give a guy, and he knows it. Why he did what he did, I'm not really sure I can answer that for him. All I know is, Jordan is a lost, confused boy who has issues he needs to deal with. The only thing that makes this easier for me is the all the support I've received from my buddies, and the fact that these girls aren't supermodels helped my ego a lil...lol. I could only imgaine these girls being totally hott, and then my self esteem totally going down the drain, and then maybe me blaming myself for getting cheated on. But NOOO.... I know I did nothing to cause this, and it's not my fault, so I'm not about to for one second, feel sorry for myself. I already felt miserable for a week, before the fact, and I'm not going back into that hole again.
But I must say, I do miss having that somebody to share my feelings with right now. I guess it's because I didn't see any of this coming. It wasn't a breakup that was slowly reaching, it was completely unpredictable. I wasn't coming to the point where I felt like i needed space or anything like that. I was actually happy being in this relationship, and I totally enjoyed this boys company. Except now I know it was all a lie. But yea... I just feel bored right now...everything feels so dull. I feel like I need something to spark things up again. Maybe I'm suppose to wait, i don't know. Maybe there is something else more important for me to accomplish right now. Maybe I should just stay friends with peple right now, and put the relationship thing on hold for now. Meh...who knows rele? Gawd...life is sure confusing. God has put me through some majorrr tests, and I hope I'm getting through them alright.
Time to get ready for work again... cus that seems to be the only thing I have going for me right now.
Daisy
So it's been a few weeks after the break up with Jordan. I'm doing well with it considering that the break up was due to him cheating on me with TWO girls. I wont let myself cry over it, because if he's gonna do me wrong like that he's definitely not worth the tears. I know I didn't deserve that, I gave him the most trust and respect a girl friend could give a guy, and he knows it. Why he did what he did, I'm not really sure I can answer that for him. All I know is, Jordan is a lost, confused boy who has issues he needs to deal with. The only thing that makes this easier for me is the all the support I've received from my buddies, and the fact that these girls aren't supermodels helped my ego a lil...lol. I could only imgaine these girls being totally hott, and then my self esteem totally going down the drain, and then maybe me blaming myself for getting cheated on. But NOOO.... I know I did nothing to cause this, and it's not my fault, so I'm not about to for one second, feel sorry for myself. I already felt miserable for a week, before the fact, and I'm not going back into that hole again.
But I must say, I do miss having that somebody to share my feelings with right now. I guess it's because I didn't see any of this coming. It wasn't a breakup that was slowly reaching, it was completely unpredictable. I wasn't coming to the point where I felt like i needed space or anything like that. I was actually happy being in this relationship, and I totally enjoyed this boys company. Except now I know it was all a lie. But yea... I just feel bored right now...everything feels so dull. I feel like I need something to spark things up again. Maybe I'm suppose to wait, i don't know. Maybe there is something else more important for me to accomplish right now. Maybe I should just stay friends with peple right now, and put the relationship thing on hold for now. Meh...who knows rele? Gawd...life is sure confusing. God has put me through some majorrr tests, and I hope I'm getting through them alright.
Time to get ready for work again... cus that seems to be the only thing I have going for me right now.
Daisy