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I've been here over ten months, and I'm finding it harder and harder to want to return 'home'. I do miss performing, but I wasn't doing that too much, anyway, if you count prosecuting as 'performing'.
Some of the fans were nice. The constant attention was nice, most of the time.
After that trial, though... mm. My own morality was called into question by some. On occasion, I wonder if they might have been right.
And I wonder if he was really insane, or just... damaged. He was pleasant most of the time, but I can't help but wonder, once again, how much of it was an act.
I hate having to doubt him like this. But what I said was true. The legal system was reforming, and he was not.
At least here I got to see him again.
I'm thinking in circles. But when it comes to the subject of Kristoph, I know that I'm too personally involved to be objective.
I've always been the one to move on ahead, forge new paths, but here... I can't do it the same way. And I'm afraid.
Because I keep seeing him in myself. And I don't want to end up like he did.
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I need a drink.