Frustrated....
So my 1st game is on tuesday, against casa grande, and i dont think we will be that ready. We havent practiced very much, i havent pitched, etc. So Im frustrated. Im so nervous also.
Ok, so latly, i dont know whats up...but all I have been doing is crying, crying myself to sleep, crying at school, during class, i mean i dont know whats going on. I think its because i keep thinking about graduation, in 3 months. Im excited but also sad, i wont be with my best friends. I went to rancho and grew up with everyone and i wont be graduating with them, so i think thats my biggest thing. But i transfered for the better, but still its just hard.
I need to stop thinking about it as much i think, because its getting to me alot. I think thats why im upset all the time.
My bro got in a bad accident last weekend, The hardest thing I have ever gone through. Just pulling up to the scene, and just seeing his car flipped, and all the fire trucks and cops. I cried so much, i mean my face was beat red all day from crying so much.
I dunno, I feel bad for my mom cuz she has dealt with so much shit from my brother ever since he got his license. But she yells at me so much, for everything, everything is always pinned on me. I just need to get away, go on a nice long vacation all by myself away from everything...
have a good weekend everyone
ash*
Ok, so latly, i dont know whats up...but all I have been doing is crying, crying myself to sleep, crying at school, during class, i mean i dont know whats going on. I think its because i keep thinking about graduation, in 3 months. Im excited but also sad, i wont be with my best friends. I went to rancho and grew up with everyone and i wont be graduating with them, so i think thats my biggest thing. But i transfered for the better, but still its just hard.
I need to stop thinking about it as much i think, because its getting to me alot. I think thats why im upset all the time.
My bro got in a bad accident last weekend, The hardest thing I have ever gone through. Just pulling up to the scene, and just seeing his car flipped, and all the fire trucks and cops. I cried so much, i mean my face was beat red all day from crying so much.
I dunno, I feel bad for my mom cuz she has dealt with so much shit from my brother ever since he got his license. But she yells at me so much, for everything, everything is always pinned on me. I just need to get away, go on a nice long vacation all by myself away from everything...
have a good weekend everyone
ash*