Nov 07, 2008 02:00
You know, I've been alone for a long time. 24 years is a long time, and sometimes I wonder if I really am gay because of the difficulty I've got in procuring the man I want. Maybe I'm just somebody who's been destined to grow out of a maddening ideal. Maybe I'm a soul whose quest is to get "with it" and "go straight." Those are two concepts that might actually exist.
Well, I saw my work-crush with what looks to be his girl tonight, and I'm bummed. I'm definitely not heartbroken though, and that's the worst part. And that's what makes me question my sexuality the most.