Life is fucking bullshit.
Pick up the newspaper for the first time in weeks and find out you lost
a friend in the worst way possible. Yesterday sucked more than I
can express. I'm able to cry about it now, but I still don't know
how I feel. Perhaps enraged that someone could be so heartless as
to kill her. Upset that I'll never see her again. Guilty
that I didn't see her when I had the chance. More than anything,
I want to believe this is one big joke, this didn't happen. She's
alive and she's going to send me an email telling me to call her so we
can catch up. But it's done, she's gone, and I don't sleep
well. I can't stop thinking about her.
One of the first things you notice about her is that she's always going - talking, laughing, smiling, singing, dancing, working. She never stopped, always busy. If there wasn't music to dance or sing to, she made her own or did without. If you've ever noticed me doing that, dancing without the music, humming to myself, etc, you now know where it came from. I never do it as well as her, but it's completely Amber.
They said lots of nice things about her in the papers. Got a lot of things right about her, too. Said she wanted to travel, and she wanted to study zoology and wildlife ecology. But they don't know why. Of course, within 5 minutes of meeting her, she'll tell you. Wanted to go all over the world and study animals so they could develop better habitats for zoo animals. Said she liked to dance and was very athletic, but only those that know her know she was also a writer. Liked to go to poetry readings and was working on her memoirs. Two people write memoirs. Those with a story to tell, and those who know they will have a story. Am knew she was going places. She wanted to study abroad, got accepted to uni in Austrailia.
But, where is all that now?
One of the first things you notice about her is that she's always going - talking, laughing, smiling, singing, dancing, working. She never stopped, always busy. If there wasn't music to dance or sing to, she made her own or did without. If you've ever noticed me doing that, dancing without the music, humming to myself, etc, you now know where it came from. I never do it as well as her, but it's completely Amber.
They said lots of nice things about her in the papers. Got a lot of things right about her, too. Said she wanted to travel, and she wanted to study zoology and wildlife ecology. But they don't know why. Of course, within 5 minutes of meeting her, she'll tell you. Wanted to go all over the world and study animals so they could develop better habitats for zoo animals. Said she liked to dance and was very athletic, but only those that know her know she was also a writer. Liked to go to poetry readings and was working on her memoirs. Two people write memoirs. Those with a story to tell, and those who know they will have a story. Am knew she was going places. She wanted to study abroad, got accepted to uni in Austrailia.
But, where is all that now?