zombifried
I really don't feel well right now and I know for certain I won't sleep as well as I should be tonight, so it's gonna be yet another day of me feeling like crap at work. I so wish I was working right now and not grass cutting. I wish I could make this family a happy one without stresses or arguments or paranoia or housework problems. I just want everything to be fine but I know for a while it isn't.
I'm not the person I wished that I would be at 21. I'm such a rage head. I can't figure out why and that drives me even more crazy. I just wish I could be calm again, without trying to make myself calm by smoking weed... this is really not good. I'm worried that I'm gonna lose everything and that I'll never see Sky again. Meghan and Sky mean so much for me but I don't feel like I can make either of them happy anymore and I'm also cared that if I don't lose them, I'll carry on not being able to make them happy, not being the person that I know I can be. I need to talk to someone, I'm going insane. I need something to happen.
I'm not the person I wished that I would be at 21. I'm such a rage head. I can't figure out why and that drives me even more crazy. I just wish I could be calm again, without trying to make myself calm by smoking weed... this is really not good. I'm worried that I'm gonna lose everything and that I'll never see Sky again. Meghan and Sky mean so much for me but I don't feel like I can make either of them happy anymore and I'm also cared that if I don't lose them, I'll carry on not being able to make them happy, not being the person that I know I can be. I need to talk to someone, I'm going insane. I need something to happen.