Not a rant, more of an exposition.

Oct 20, 2003 00:58

We all have bad days, and rough patches in life. Its a part of life, some deal with it better than others. Lately I've been thinking about what constitutes a bad spell by my current standards. When you look back over your life, if you can be objective, what stands out in your mind as being the worst periods? Its occurred to me that sometimes certain things never get better or resolve themselves, and possibly never will. Which can be a rather depressing thought. If you see the big picture and it looks like you've been on a steady downturn, happy thoughts are not probable in the near forecast.
Here's the thing though. What else do you have? The future is always uncertain, yet your past is written in stone. Id rather build on stone personally. Why rehash things in the past, your past or others? Let it the fuck go, and move on. If you cant, keep it to yourself. And learn to keep your own shit to yourself, hypocrites suck.
Life isnt always easy, and sometimes, even all the time, we will be alone. The sooner we can all get that inside, and get on top of it, the better off we'll be. Like Rollins said, Suffer Your Wounds Alone. Help those you want to, never expect it back. Its great to have people be there for you, but you gotta be able to get over by yourself. Sad but true.
I learned that there is a world of difference between being alone, and being lonely. The first is fine, the second is not. Its up to you which one you are at any given moment. I will do a lot for people when I feel its the right thing to do, but I never forget one thing. Never give away something you cant afford to lose, never leave something unprotected you cant afford to get hurt. If seomthing goes south on me, I know before hand that Im capable of moving on, and I dont let it get me too down. You have to be in control of your own life, and what you do in it, as much as you possibly can. Buddhism says that we cause most of our own suffering ourselves, there's a very important lesson in that. Do what you have to do to get by, and always work to know what that is. All we really have in this world is ourselves.
Love and respect to those who deserve it.
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