To steal a qoute from my best friend ...
"Do you know that pain in your jaw that lasts for a few seconds when you're on the verge of tears? I've been like that for the last few days.
I've really gotta do something about cheering up."...(jason 5th January 2005 )
Thats how I've been feeling knowing now more certain than before that leaving arizona is almost unavoidable.
I still have no place to stay..I'm no longer looking for a place to stay until I can get back on my feet more of a place to stay until all of my court stuff is settled b/c the last thing I need is more porblems with the law.. as I type this I feel like Im going to cry but then I think I have to be strong and happy and try to enjoy the wonderful ppl I have met here for the short amount of time I have left here..on Friday I will know for sure how much longer I have to stay.
Im not going away forever only until I have enough money again to live a stable live out here..Im going to work hard and be optimistic and say at most I'll be gone for a year. It's very hard for me to come to terms with this its funny how one mistake can practically ruin a persons life. I feel really bad leaving behind everything and everyone I 've grown to love. Some of you'll I'll see again through out the year on occasion others not until I get back. I feel sick every time I think about leaving ..I'm full of disappointment and regret...but then again all this goes away when I see those that are important to me..hopefully the'll miss me just as much as I'll miss them.. I haven't updated in weeks just for this reason but I could'nt take it anymore. I know this isnt the best news to update and it seems really cliche and angsty but its the hard cold reality I have had to wake up to everyday for the past few weeks.
P.S.Im really sorry guys...=( I'm going to try hard to enjoy my final days here I dedicate the last of my happiness to my girlfriend and jason my best friend whose a brother to me.. b/c for a year I'll be without them living off hopes is gonna suck but as the saying goes in spanish " un ano no es un siglo yo volvere."
I've really gotta do something about cheering up."...(jason 5th January 2005 )
Thats how I've been feeling knowing now more certain than before that leaving arizona is almost unavoidable.
I still have no place to stay..I'm no longer looking for a place to stay until I can get back on my feet more of a place to stay until all of my court stuff is settled b/c the last thing I need is more porblems with the law.. as I type this I feel like Im going to cry but then I think I have to be strong and happy and try to enjoy the wonderful ppl I have met here for the short amount of time I have left here..on Friday I will know for sure how much longer I have to stay.
Im not going away forever only until I have enough money again to live a stable live out here..Im going to work hard and be optimistic and say at most I'll be gone for a year. It's very hard for me to come to terms with this its funny how one mistake can practically ruin a persons life. I feel really bad leaving behind everything and everyone I 've grown to love. Some of you'll I'll see again through out the year on occasion others not until I get back. I feel sick every time I think about leaving ..I'm full of disappointment and regret...but then again all this goes away when I see those that are important to me..hopefully the'll miss me just as much as I'll miss them.. I haven't updated in weeks just for this reason but I could'nt take it anymore. I know this isnt the best news to update and it seems really cliche and angsty but its the hard cold reality I have had to wake up to everyday for the past few weeks.
P.S.Im really sorry guys...=( I'm going to try hard to enjoy my final days here I dedicate the last of my happiness to my girlfriend and jason my best friend whose a brother to me.. b/c for a year I'll be without them living off hopes is gonna suck but as the saying goes in spanish " un ano no es un siglo yo volvere."