Fuck It!!!
So here we are again. Same guy, different BS. I guess I'm just a maganet for drama or something. I will say this though, I don't care anymore. Its time for me to become more of a leader and more of a self centered man. All this caring about other people shit is for the birds. No one every really delivers for you like you can deliver for yourself. Thats a new standard for me. I love hard and get loved less. I play hard and get less play. I live hard... Thats all I can do now. I'm focused on trying to understand how to succeed without the need of others.
Take today for instance... I'm off and chilling in my bed. Phone rings... Its my big boss telling me that I'm being interviewed for some investigation on Monday. No one else in the office, just fucking me. Seriously?????
Ummm... Rewind to Sunday. I got the news that I'm getting promoted to SSG. 1st thing that comes out of my boss's mouth is "You know you can lose it as quick as you got it." Really???
Its so hard for me to go anywhere and not be the center of attention. I guess now I just have to milk that shit and make it what I want it to be. I'm 27 years old and I have managed to keep myself out of a lot of BS. I'm a man that takes care of all my responsibilites and most of other peoples as well. What else do I need to do. I like being the guy that I am. I like being free of all the BS. So why now?
In other news, I guess that you can say that my work load is about to be extreme. I will be in FT. Meade the 9th - 11th. Then I'll be gone again the week after that. Then, my new unit hits the gtound on the 18th. I'll be at their waking call 24/7 until they leave. God help me!!!
I'm still here though. I'm still going to be the loveable sexually strong intellegent Shawn that you all know and love. Just tweeked a bit!!
Take today for instance... I'm off and chilling in my bed. Phone rings... Its my big boss telling me that I'm being interviewed for some investigation on Monday. No one else in the office, just fucking me. Seriously?????
Ummm... Rewind to Sunday. I got the news that I'm getting promoted to SSG. 1st thing that comes out of my boss's mouth is "You know you can lose it as quick as you got it." Really???
Its so hard for me to go anywhere and not be the center of attention. I guess now I just have to milk that shit and make it what I want it to be. I'm 27 years old and I have managed to keep myself out of a lot of BS. I'm a man that takes care of all my responsibilites and most of other peoples as well. What else do I need to do. I like being the guy that I am. I like being free of all the BS. So why now?
In other news, I guess that you can say that my work load is about to be extreme. I will be in FT. Meade the 9th - 11th. Then I'll be gone again the week after that. Then, my new unit hits the gtound on the 18th. I'll be at their waking call 24/7 until they leave. God help me!!!
I'm still here though. I'm still going to be the loveable sexually strong intellegent Shawn that you all know and love. Just tweeked a bit!!