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im having one of "those" days.. irrational, angry, everything crappy keeps happening.. its been more than a day, its been the past 10 years of my stupid jerk life. but i digress. that is not the point.
the point is i just wanted to come home and spend the rest of my day cleaning my room and going through all of my shit, looking for my old cell phone (does anyone have an old cell phone they want to donate? maybe you upgraded? have a working phone...? i cant afford to buy a new one right now and im paying for a plan i cant use.)
and i walk into the house and my dad says "call caroline" (my cousin) and i had a total OH SHIT moment. i totally forgot that we are going to niagara falls tonight.
now if i were half of the stupid jerk people that i know, i would of either avoided and not called, or i would of called her and said "yea, i dont feel well, i dont think im going to come tonight" but i would like to take this moment to point out that im NOT a jerk, that i called her, put on a fake enthusiasic voice and said "WHAT TIME ARE WE GOING??" even thought it is the LAST thing in the world that i want to do. i feel like crap, i have a cold, im getting my period, im angry and sad and frustrated, but im NOT going to just put the avoidtion card, im going to stick to my plans and make her happy because life isnt all about me. sacrifice.
so this all may seem very bitter, but i have not been stood up by a friend recently, this isnt a fresh-emotionally backed tyrad, this is aimed to all of those people that i know from over the years, as far back as grade two, to two weeks ago when someone's cell phone suddenly didnt work. somethings you just do things you dont really feel like doing, who knows, maybe you will have a good time?
im going to go try to take a nap, but i know i wont fall asleep. ( i will just grow more frustrated)
(this is phase two of my period where everyone else is a douchebag, tomorrow,: phase three; entire box of tissue donated to the tear jerking poignancy of the new shins cd)
the point is i just wanted to come home and spend the rest of my day cleaning my room and going through all of my shit, looking for my old cell phone (does anyone have an old cell phone they want to donate? maybe you upgraded? have a working phone...? i cant afford to buy a new one right now and im paying for a plan i cant use.)
and i walk into the house and my dad says "call caroline" (my cousin) and i had a total OH SHIT moment. i totally forgot that we are going to niagara falls tonight.
now if i were half of the stupid jerk people that i know, i would of either avoided and not called, or i would of called her and said "yea, i dont feel well, i dont think im going to come tonight" but i would like to take this moment to point out that im NOT a jerk, that i called her, put on a fake enthusiasic voice and said "WHAT TIME ARE WE GOING??" even thought it is the LAST thing in the world that i want to do. i feel like crap, i have a cold, im getting my period, im angry and sad and frustrated, but im NOT going to just put the avoidtion card, im going to stick to my plans and make her happy because life isnt all about me. sacrifice.
so this all may seem very bitter, but i have not been stood up by a friend recently, this isnt a fresh-emotionally backed tyrad, this is aimed to all of those people that i know from over the years, as far back as grade two, to two weeks ago when someone's cell phone suddenly didnt work. somethings you just do things you dont really feel like doing, who knows, maybe you will have a good time?
im going to go try to take a nap, but i know i wont fall asleep. ( i will just grow more frustrated)
(this is phase two of my period where everyone else is a douchebag, tomorrow,: phase three; entire box of tissue donated to the tear jerking poignancy of the new shins cd)