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Haven’t done this in a while, but I miss writing.
I bought a PJ Harvey album last week. I downloaded a few songs off the net, and thought it was time to buy an album. (Don't even get me started on the downloading rant.) She's this tiny woman, who has a tiny recording studio, and she writes all her songs, and plays her guitars, and invites literally friends over to play bass, and help out, but it's just so bohemian, and so deep. I know this is going to sound really strange, but it reminds me of different cloths, like different coloured silks, and buttons and fabrics. Like candle light, and thread. And like magicians capes, with the silks, and the woven stars. It's just so beautiful, and so deep and it just flow's, there's just a huge undertone to it all. She reminds me of waves.
I like listening just to people playing there guitars. You can tell so much by them just by the way that they play. Allot of it is to do with rhythm, because it's something your born with (or without), and it's something no one can copy. Kind of like a birthmark. And it's something you can just tap into and flow with, and drown in.
Things that make me feel good, and things that I love, and fell grateful that I have.
*When I go to work, and I go into starbucks, with my cheap suit on, and I get my change out, and buy a mocha that's £2.50, and they call me sir. And then I sit in the window, and watch all the people go by, like one of those cats who sits in the windows. It makes me feel sad sometimes for some reason.
*when I get home, and it's dark, and my baby-cat is asleep on my bed, and I turn the light on, and he wakes up really slowly, and he blinks allot, and looks so confused.
*When I play my guitar. Sometimes there's just this thing that happens, and I just get into this flow, and I don't think at all, I jus feel. Like this underground stream that I tap into once every blue moon.
*when I can smell snow.
*My heart
*My eyes.
*Anyone who has ever made me laugh or cry.
*When I smile.
*The fact that I know not to rely on anyone else but yourself.
*Liam and Trizzaza sing alongs.
*Bunny, I love him.
*When I have had a really shit day, and I just want to sleep, and tell everyone to go fuck themselves, and I don't want to care for anyone else but my self, and then something small happens. Like when a friend hugs you, and it means so much, and they don't hold on to it, but you do, and you're grateful.
*When someone calls just to speak to me.
Don't let anyone degrade these stupid little things that make you feel proud. Don't let anyone alter what you feel for, just because they think it's cool, because at the end of the day the only thing you really have is yourself, and when that's gone, impressing people is all you have left.
And here's a message for the cunt that did this to me for so many years.
Dear WHore, you're like red wine; you taste like shit, and you stain.
I think I should leave you all with a positive message, but you have to think about it! Don’t just take it as me trying to be profound, really fucking listen. It's a lyric by PJ Harvey, and it's really simple.
Take life as it comes.
I love you all,
Goodnight.
xxx
I bought a PJ Harvey album last week. I downloaded a few songs off the net, and thought it was time to buy an album. (Don't even get me started on the downloading rant.) She's this tiny woman, who has a tiny recording studio, and she writes all her songs, and plays her guitars, and invites literally friends over to play bass, and help out, but it's just so bohemian, and so deep. I know this is going to sound really strange, but it reminds me of different cloths, like different coloured silks, and buttons and fabrics. Like candle light, and thread. And like magicians capes, with the silks, and the woven stars. It's just so beautiful, and so deep and it just flow's, there's just a huge undertone to it all. She reminds me of waves.
I like listening just to people playing there guitars. You can tell so much by them just by the way that they play. Allot of it is to do with rhythm, because it's something your born with (or without), and it's something no one can copy. Kind of like a birthmark. And it's something you can just tap into and flow with, and drown in.
Things that make me feel good, and things that I love, and fell grateful that I have.
*When I go to work, and I go into starbucks, with my cheap suit on, and I get my change out, and buy a mocha that's £2.50, and they call me sir. And then I sit in the window, and watch all the people go by, like one of those cats who sits in the windows. It makes me feel sad sometimes for some reason.
*when I get home, and it's dark, and my baby-cat is asleep on my bed, and I turn the light on, and he wakes up really slowly, and he blinks allot, and looks so confused.
*When I play my guitar. Sometimes there's just this thing that happens, and I just get into this flow, and I don't think at all, I jus feel. Like this underground stream that I tap into once every blue moon.
*when I can smell snow.
*My heart
*My eyes.
*Anyone who has ever made me laugh or cry.
*When I smile.
*The fact that I know not to rely on anyone else but yourself.
*Liam and Trizzaza sing alongs.
*Bunny, I love him.
*When I have had a really shit day, and I just want to sleep, and tell everyone to go fuck themselves, and I don't want to care for anyone else but my self, and then something small happens. Like when a friend hugs you, and it means so much, and they don't hold on to it, but you do, and you're grateful.
*When someone calls just to speak to me.
Don't let anyone degrade these stupid little things that make you feel proud. Don't let anyone alter what you feel for, just because they think it's cool, because at the end of the day the only thing you really have is yourself, and when that's gone, impressing people is all you have left.
And here's a message for the cunt that did this to me for so many years.
Dear WHore, you're like red wine; you taste like shit, and you stain.
I think I should leave you all with a positive message, but you have to think about it! Don’t just take it as me trying to be profound, really fucking listen. It's a lyric by PJ Harvey, and it's really simple.
Take life as it comes.
I love you all,
Goodnight.
xxx