Indulgences
I refuse to feel guilt. It's an unneeded hindrance to the pursuit of bettering oneself.
To feel guilt is to admit that someone else has power over you. I won't accede to that. I am the ultimate authority for my life, and I do what I need to do to accomplish my goals.
If I do make an occassional misstep, I see no need to feel guilty about it. Things are as they are, and one can either let it go at that, or one can grab the bull by the balls and improve one's situation.
Since I see guilt as unproductive in general, I see it as doubly so when it comes to pursuing pleasure. Admittedly, I am not above hurting others to get what I want. And polite society would cringe at my not feeling bad for that. But I really don't care what 'polite' society thinks of me.
....IF I had to say I felt guilty about anything I got pleasure out of, it would be...the whole shooting thing.
Yes, fine, I shot my ex...what? Girlfriend? Lover? Mistress?
The chick in the picture, ok? We've been over this.
I shot her, and it felt *really* good. I enjoyed every moment of it, until I passed out, anyway. I enjoyed thinking of it, I enjoyed planning it, and I enjoyed carrying it out.
I didn't manage to kill her (Yes, I am a rather bad shot, it would seem) but the wounding was quite satisfying.
And she deserved it. She deserved it several times over.
So, for the sake of this Q&A thing we're all so busy with here, I will make this statement:
I shot her; I enjoyed it; it was a pleasure; I should feel guilty (I suppose), but I don't. So there.
I WAS thrown in prison, you know. I paid my debt to society.
Well. I would have, if that guard hadn't taken a fancy to me and busted me out.
What was i Supposed to say? "No thank you, I owe it to society to die for my crime?"
Fuck that!
-Julien
Julien Sorel
Scarlet and Black
WC ~360
To feel guilt is to admit that someone else has power over you. I won't accede to that. I am the ultimate authority for my life, and I do what I need to do to accomplish my goals.
If I do make an occassional misstep, I see no need to feel guilty about it. Things are as they are, and one can either let it go at that, or one can grab the bull by the balls and improve one's situation.
Since I see guilt as unproductive in general, I see it as doubly so when it comes to pursuing pleasure. Admittedly, I am not above hurting others to get what I want. And polite society would cringe at my not feeling bad for that. But I really don't care what 'polite' society thinks of me.
....IF I had to say I felt guilty about anything I got pleasure out of, it would be...the whole shooting thing.
Yes, fine, I shot my ex...what? Girlfriend? Lover? Mistress?
The chick in the picture, ok? We've been over this.
I shot her, and it felt *really* good. I enjoyed every moment of it, until I passed out, anyway. I enjoyed thinking of it, I enjoyed planning it, and I enjoyed carrying it out.
I didn't manage to kill her (Yes, I am a rather bad shot, it would seem) but the wounding was quite satisfying.
And she deserved it. She deserved it several times over.
So, for the sake of this Q&A thing we're all so busy with here, I will make this statement:
I shot her; I enjoyed it; it was a pleasure; I should feel guilty (I suppose), but I don't. So there.
I WAS thrown in prison, you know. I paid my debt to society.
Well. I would have, if that guard hadn't taken a fancy to me and busted me out.
What was i Supposed to say? "No thank you, I owe it to society to die for my crime?"
Fuck that!
-Julien
Julien Sorel
Scarlet and Black
WC ~360