shtuff
(shit + stuff)
Is it just sick and wrong that I tried calling J yesterday because I noticed part of one of his FB statuses where he said "not intentional", and all I really wanted to do was call and say "make sure she sees a counselor!"? I mean ... it ... I wish I had my fucking cert-.
In other news, Moni-Volcano is currently dormant. Thanks be to the furry lord.
Went to see The Lightning Thief with my mom last night. I was impressed, if only because it wasn't one of those sappy teen movies &/or movies that you're watching it and thinking "omfg, kill me now". I was further impressed when my mom liked it.
Been bingeing a lot lately. I hit the 93s, though. On Monday I'll restart my engine. *vroom* lol. I went on my old xanga and said that I hate this disease. Speaking of Xanga, Slagel asked me how this one girl and I knew each other... this girl apparently slashed his tires but apparently they're friends now. So I'm just kinda' O_o at how small this world is.
Mom's been tossing side-comments about various things. What's worse is when she calls herself fat. Because then I either think "omfg you're not FAT" or "hehe, I'm going to be thin before you are". I just never know what exactly to say..
I think I'm really close to buying laxatives. Mom made a comment last night about how I could set up some sort of allowance system from my Target money, so technically that's parental unit "do what you want", so ... and I really want some freaking Twinkies. Unfortunately, due to several Martin comments, I should probably avoid shopping at Target. Apparently they STILL think we're dating. We all know he sees me for my disorders......... Grr. GRR. RAWRZ. *sighs* He just realizes that he's got this white-knight tendancy, and he's nipping it in the bud. I respect him for that. I'm glad that we're still friends, but it still feels like we broke up or something. Anyway, I think I'll make a list of books that I want to buy & then get one a month or maybe just two a month. And I should really stop getting coffee every day at school. I'll try to start bringing some, lol. My poor credit card XD. Martin says that we can still be friends, but ... I don't want to hurt him, and I *know* that this disease will maim me up, and I don't want him to be around to be hurt when that happens, but at the same time I want my friends present. Speaking of friends, LOL at me because Emily is probably going to hate my tushie. OMW. She won't shut up!! I mean, see, I'm sort of used to this. All right, I'm Catholic. At XA, they never jumped me. Everyone that I knew that wasn't Catholic was very accepting of my faith. Emily takes this to a whole new level, practically jumping my ass when I told her that I couldn't go to church with her. She was SO confused, kept repeating that it was just on Saturday and that I could still go to Mass on Sunday. I really want to be friends with her, but if she keeps this up, I'm going to tell her to go screw herself. I currently have had enough of this whole God thing. First I was falling for a priest, and then after moving to TX I find out that a different priest that'd been in the SAME parish was involved in a priest scandal. I'm just ... to use Martin's word, disenchanted. Being Catholic ... I miss it. I wish that I had it. I mean, I still have it, you know?, but I'm not like I LOVE BEING CATHOLIC or anything. Still, I guess Emily's little pro-active-yay-Jesus ... no, it still makes me want to punch her in the face. It's admirable, but I'm sick with two disorders--I have two massive problems--and I need recovery systems. I don't need to just wake up one day and think "Oh, Jesus, please save me!" because, and while it has happened to some Catholics (hello, how many saints do we have?), I just ... I mean, I believe in Christ just like the next person, but ... I really don't feel like *within my faith, my current eyesight* Jesus can help me. I've tried relying on God for recovery from my ED at one point when I lived in AR, and we all know I'm still massively within the disorder.
Oops. Sorry. lol, talking too much. I'll... talk later? lol. HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY.
Is it just sick and wrong that I tried calling J yesterday because I noticed part of one of his FB statuses where he said "not intentional", and all I really wanted to do was call and say "make sure she sees a counselor!"? I mean ... it ... I wish I had my fucking cert-.
In other news, Moni-Volcano is currently dormant. Thanks be to the furry lord.
Went to see The Lightning Thief with my mom last night. I was impressed, if only because it wasn't one of those sappy teen movies &/or movies that you're watching it and thinking "omfg, kill me now". I was further impressed when my mom liked it.
Been bingeing a lot lately. I hit the 93s, though. On Monday I'll restart my engine. *vroom* lol. I went on my old xanga and said that I hate this disease. Speaking of Xanga, Slagel asked me how this one girl and I knew each other... this girl apparently slashed his tires but apparently they're friends now. So I'm just kinda' O_o at how small this world is.
Mom's been tossing side-comments about various things. What's worse is when she calls herself fat. Because then I either think "omfg you're not FAT" or "hehe, I'm going to be thin before you are". I just never know what exactly to say..
I think I'm really close to buying laxatives. Mom made a comment last night about how I could set up some sort of allowance system from my Target money, so technically that's parental unit "do what you want", so ... and I really want some freaking Twinkies. Unfortunately, due to several Martin comments, I should probably avoid shopping at Target. Apparently they STILL think we're dating. We all know he sees me for my disorders......... Grr. GRR. RAWRZ. *sighs* He just realizes that he's got this white-knight tendancy, and he's nipping it in the bud. I respect him for that. I'm glad that we're still friends, but it still feels like we broke up or something. Anyway, I think I'll make a list of books that I want to buy & then get one a month or maybe just two a month. And I should really stop getting coffee every day at school. I'll try to start bringing some, lol. My poor credit card XD. Martin says that we can still be friends, but ... I don't want to hurt him, and I *know* that this disease will maim me up, and I don't want him to be around to be hurt when that happens, but at the same time I want my friends present. Speaking of friends, LOL at me because Emily is probably going to hate my tushie. OMW. She won't shut up!! I mean, see, I'm sort of used to this. All right, I'm Catholic. At XA, they never jumped me. Everyone that I knew that wasn't Catholic was very accepting of my faith. Emily takes this to a whole new level, practically jumping my ass when I told her that I couldn't go to church with her. She was SO confused, kept repeating that it was just on Saturday and that I could still go to Mass on Sunday. I really want to be friends with her, but if she keeps this up, I'm going to tell her to go screw herself. I currently have had enough of this whole God thing. First I was falling for a priest, and then after moving to TX I find out that a different priest that'd been in the SAME parish was involved in a priest scandal. I'm just ... to use Martin's word, disenchanted. Being Catholic ... I miss it. I wish that I had it. I mean, I still have it, you know?, but I'm not like I LOVE BEING CATHOLIC or anything. Still, I guess Emily's little pro-active-yay-Jesus ... no, it still makes me want to punch her in the face. It's admirable, but I'm sick with two disorders--I have two massive problems--and I need recovery systems. I don't need to just wake up one day and think "Oh, Jesus, please save me!" because, and while it has happened to some Catholics (hello, how many saints do we have?), I just ... I mean, I believe in Christ just like the next person, but ... I really don't feel like *within my faith, my current eyesight* Jesus can help me. I've tried relying on God for recovery from my ED at one point when I lived in AR, and we all know I'm still massively within the disorder.
Oops. Sorry. lol, talking too much. I'll... talk later? lol. HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY.