Whoopsies!
I was going to write a proper entry much, much sooner and then just..forgot. Totally erased from the mind. But it's Thursday night, I'm home alone, and instead of another crappy survey, remembered there's actually another purpose to LJ.
Of course, it helps that I feel in a really awesome place right now, ha! Namely, work is going super duper, extra special great lately. It was a bit of a rough go after initially becoming Lead, but after working so much with Tom and Beth (supervisor and asst. manager extrodinaires) things have really picked up, and in a big way. They threw more responsibility at me, and I'm honestly really enjoying it. I've been leading groups/sort-a-thons pretty regularly now, which I'm really enjoying - I feel like people really listen and respond to me. Maybe it's all crap and I'm just hallucinating, but my bosses don't seem to think so and I hope I keep doing it. I'm really enjoying the interaction. Of course everything has it's flip-side - I am kind of bummed not getting to be in one place all day. I can't just pre-sort all day if need be, and sometimes I really wouldn't mind doing that. There's something to be said for those days where you just want to go in with a plan and stick with your task all day and not have to worry about the other stuff. That said, part of not wanting to walk away from one thing to another is that I don't really feel like I can - we are terribly understaffed, and half of who we've got are terribly ineffectual. If I could trust that things would still get done the way they're supposed to, moving on to something else would become a non-issue. I don't even like the thought of taking vacation time right now and I am literally obligated to do so. Seriously, I already got scolded about not scheduling time off because if I don't it disappears. "Woe is me," I know, but I honestly can't even believe I'm even in such a situation. So there is still sort of a "growth" period right now, and probably will be until we have more people and can have a more consistent routine, but even with all that I still feel like I'm doing well - I mean, I must be at least in part or they wouldn't keep giving me so much to do, right? And I am eternally grateful to Beth's guidance through it - she's got my back, and I know that, and it's such a comforting feeling to know that when I'm completely lost I can go to her. So even the rough patches are short and becoming father and farther between.
All that said, all the waxing philosophical, I must say... oh my god am I tired! Leading and corralling groups; leading and corralling co-workers; pre-sorting tutorials; pricing guides; daily, monthly, and yearly goals; frakkin' emails! I can now easily see how sometimes Jenny can forget to do reviews for months and months, and Beth can sometimes forget to eat. Brain. Drain. Having just worked a 7-day week wasn't terribly helpful, either. I'll get the hang of it, I always do, I've just never had to do so while people are depending on me.