where is the fucking sun?
well the xiu xiu show last night was amazing. Saw some friends, enjoyed the weather, and enjoyed the show.
Tonight is the festival of lights downtown. I'm actually excited to leave my apartment. Then, we are all coming back to my place and having Cajun Shrimp and watching some SNL with Dane Cook. Sure to be a pretty chill night.
There still is something that isn't quite right with me. I really don't know what it is, but sometimes I get this horrible feeling all over and I feel like complete shit, both physically and mentally. It's like I feel the entire world coming to an end. Meh, maybe it would be better if it did sometimes. But, nonetheless it puts me in this love/hate relationship with my anti-depressants. Like it seems like they are helping, but sometimes the tide really turns and I feel like a piece of shit. I really don't know. At least I have some good distractions around me to get my mind off the sad shit.
While I'm ranting, I want to discuss past relationships. Not only significant others, but in general, my friends. I really am starting to hate alot of people from my past. Most people just typically suck. Thanks for the letdowns. Tons of fun. Granted I may be a bad friend and a bad boyfriend, but it's those who forgive and move past those things, that really are my friends today. Sad to say but it's only a handful of people.
Sometimes I really just want to scream out "FUCK YOU" to alot of people, but I keep it in. I keep so many things in lately and it's killing me. I guess it's something I need to get used to, but in the meantime, I would be nice to have some sort of relief.
this kind of cloudy, dreary weather makes me want to throw myself off a building.
FUN ALL AROUND. WEEEEEEEE!
Tonight is the festival of lights downtown. I'm actually excited to leave my apartment. Then, we are all coming back to my place and having Cajun Shrimp and watching some SNL with Dane Cook. Sure to be a pretty chill night.
There still is something that isn't quite right with me. I really don't know what it is, but sometimes I get this horrible feeling all over and I feel like complete shit, both physically and mentally. It's like I feel the entire world coming to an end. Meh, maybe it would be better if it did sometimes. But, nonetheless it puts me in this love/hate relationship with my anti-depressants. Like it seems like they are helping, but sometimes the tide really turns and I feel like a piece of shit. I really don't know. At least I have some good distractions around me to get my mind off the sad shit.
While I'm ranting, I want to discuss past relationships. Not only significant others, but in general, my friends. I really am starting to hate alot of people from my past. Most people just typically suck. Thanks for the letdowns. Tons of fun. Granted I may be a bad friend and a bad boyfriend, but it's those who forgive and move past those things, that really are my friends today. Sad to say but it's only a handful of people.
Sometimes I really just want to scream out "FUCK YOU" to alot of people, but I keep it in. I keep so many things in lately and it's killing me. I guess it's something I need to get used to, but in the meantime, I would be nice to have some sort of relief.
this kind of cloudy, dreary weather makes me want to throw myself off a building.
FUN ALL AROUND. WEEEEEEEE!