Some Good Ol Self-Realization...
I just got through watching Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind for the first time. It's one of those movies that once the credits start rolling, it gets you thinking.
It made me realize that I wouldn't be the person I was today emotionally if I wouldn't have been with the people I chose.
Relationships that are long-term have to end eventually. Of course that ending will crush your heart & leave you alone & breathless, wondering why...but it has to hurt for it to end, or it wouldn't end at all. You know what I mean?
It's amazing how one person can change you. How you can sit back & ponder why you were a certain person with him, but somehow came off bland & boring with the other & so on.
How you can look back & say, "I loved who I was when I was with ____ ."
I stand waiting patiently, looking foward to making new memories & finding out more about myself because each new person in my life brings out a whole different part of myself I never knew about. Who will I be this time? How will I come off looking like to them?
I hope that the next person I choose brings out the best in me. My great sense of humor, my yearning for the spontaneous, that voice in my head that is still unheard...maybe that will come out. My love for the little things in life.
Sidenote: It's been eons since I've watched the sunset/sunrise, or layed on the ground & stared at the stars.
Ok, back on subject. I am the tangent queen...
This movie is now on my favorite all-time movies list. That one includes movies like the first Crow, "The Goonies (HEY YOU GUYYYYYS!!!!)," "Legend," "Almost Famous," "The Boondock Saints," "Clay Pigeons," & "Old School."
I know there are a ton more on my favorites list, but that's all my mind is letting me see at this point.
I miss the "old" me. Maybe I'll find it again in my next special someone.
It made me realize that I wouldn't be the person I was today emotionally if I wouldn't have been with the people I chose.
Relationships that are long-term have to end eventually. Of course that ending will crush your heart & leave you alone & breathless, wondering why...but it has to hurt for it to end, or it wouldn't end at all. You know what I mean?
It's amazing how one person can change you. How you can sit back & ponder why you were a certain person with him, but somehow came off bland & boring with the other & so on.
How you can look back & say, "I loved who I was when I was with ____ ."
I stand waiting patiently, looking foward to making new memories & finding out more about myself because each new person in my life brings out a whole different part of myself I never knew about. Who will I be this time? How will I come off looking like to them?
I hope that the next person I choose brings out the best in me. My great sense of humor, my yearning for the spontaneous, that voice in my head that is still unheard...maybe that will come out. My love for the little things in life.
Sidenote: It's been eons since I've watched the sunset/sunrise, or layed on the ground & stared at the stars.
Ok, back on subject. I am the tangent queen...
This movie is now on my favorite all-time movies list. That one includes movies like the first Crow, "The Goonies (HEY YOU GUYYYYYS!!!!)," "Legend," "Almost Famous," "The Boondock Saints," "Clay Pigeons," & "Old School."
I know there are a ton more on my favorites list, but that's all my mind is letting me see at this point.
I miss the "old" me. Maybe I'll find it again in my next special someone.