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I'm extremely depressed an a bit hurt. Today wasn't a good day. That dark cloud that seems to be catching up with me won't go away. I can't really describe in words what has me so down. Images flash through my head of how I could just make it all stop. A part of me wants to but the other part is a coward. I feel lonely. No matter what I say or whom I'm with I'm always alone. It just really feels that way right now even if its irrational. I'm not sure of what I can really do to get out of this rut. I need to see a doctor but we keep forgetting to get his information. So I just keep on in the same negative mind state. Part of me wonders if I just picked the short straw and this is how my life will always be. Never truly happy. Always wondering if more is out there and I'm just to scared to go find it. Oh well.