Dec 27, 2004 12:32
i cant be his friend it would be too hard
i dont understand i think it would be easier
to just not be friends but i would miss him
soo much but what if he found another girl
and i was his friend i would freak out i miss
him soooo much and we wont talk until i get
home another two days i think. and i hate that
he told his brother and jordan i hate that i thiunk that
we should have talked about what happened before
he told jordan but i suppose i did the same to him
i want to be with him but i think he has the wrong
idea i dont want a fucking pity party
at all i would rather not talk at all. i cant stand
this AHHHHHHHHH what the fuck am i gonna do with myself
for two moire fucking days....well going to new york
will help but...ANd what the fuck am i gonna do
if i goto his new years party what the fuck would i do with myself
i dont fucking know and my grandparents are coming into
town and i fucking got him a massager i am so
fucking on the edge of having a breakdown holy shit