Ah...
I went out to that bar again with Kobayashi-san, and we had a nice chat. I must admit that I felt a great deal relieved over some issues that I had now that we've had a chance to speak. Really, people tend to overlook him, but Kobayashi-san is a trustworthy and insightful person. I'm glad he puts up with me and is willing to help, so I have to thank him again!
Kanan--This post is in your memory. I love you and miss you more than anything else. You were a beautiful, wonderful person, and your memory will remain cherished.
But I'm moving on.
Kanan will not be forgotten, but I will no longer dwell on her. I'm sure it's better for both of us.
Moving on to what Kobayashi-san said...he's really right, I should tell him. It makes sense. But, yet, I can't. I'm just a coward inside, I can't risk our friendship, risk my best friend, my...well, my saviour. I want to hold him near, even if it's without telling him.
Maybe someday I'll be able to convince myself to tell him. But for now, I'll be content in not feeling guilty for my emotions.
I do wish it would get warm again, winter is so dry and dreary and cold. I need a new sweater.
Kanan--This post is in your memory. I love you and miss you more than anything else. You were a beautiful, wonderful person, and your memory will remain cherished.
But I'm moving on.
Kanan will not be forgotten, but I will no longer dwell on her. I'm sure it's better for both of us.
Moving on to what Kobayashi-san said...he's really right, I should tell him. It makes sense. But, yet, I can't. I'm just a coward inside, I can't risk our friendship, risk my best friend, my...well, my saviour. I want to hold him near, even if it's without telling him.
Maybe someday I'll be able to convince myself to tell him. But for now, I'll be content in not feeling guilty for my emotions.
I do wish it would get warm again, winter is so dry and dreary and cold. I need a new sweater.