Some sexual content
I have been completely oversexed and distracted lately, but this post isn't all about sex.
Doug
Doug, my primary boyfriend man, has been depressed for an assortment of reasons. He's up in another state all alone with a roommate who hits on him all the time, but he's not interested. His dating life isn't very exciting and he hates his expensive academic program. Not to mention his girlfriend is having awesome sex with two other guys.
I miss him a lot and I know exactly how he is feeling all alone up there because I was in exactly the same place not long ago and that is part of our connection. We have been talking on the phone for hours at a time about some issues in the past and just recently our fluid bond. We hadn't defined our fluid bond yet and it's a good thing we did! Doug had the expectation that I would not be swallowing with Pete or Tommy, but my rule (since before I started sleeping with Doug) is that I would love to swallow after we have had negative HIV results. Doug said he didn't want to ask me to not to swallow with them because he knows how great it can be, but I don't mind keeping that for us and encouraged him to express feelings like that. If that is something I can do to make him happier, that only benefits me by protecting me from infections and satisfying my lover. It's a small compromise to make and I hope it eases his concerns.
I was a little abusive to him on the phone because of my period, and I tried to warn him but when I tried to get off the phone before starting a fight with him about something I knew was insignificant, he probed me about my feelings and we got into a fight! I feel awful that he is the only boyfriend who has to deal with my menstrual cycle out of the bunch of them so I have to be more conscientious of that next month.
Tommy
I am all about Tommy right now. I don't often end up dating guys my age** (I am 25) but Tommy is 25 and it's super awesome. It's so relaxing to chill with him at his house. He gets sexier every day. He is open to doing whatever I want, but I feel the same way so since we are both lazy stoners we usually just watch movies and have sex. I told Tommy about my fluid bond rules with Doug and we got Chinese take out last night. We watched the new episode of Misfits and then Hot Shots. He lent me some comfy pants to wear to bed. This morning he had to leave for work around 5 AM but he invited me to sleep in at his house since I am on vacation from school. It's easy for me to get home from his place on the train, so I've had a very leisurely morning. We won't see each other again for the rest of the week because of family obligations and work but I don't even care. It's surreal how good I feel with him.
On my way onto the train platform in his neighborhood, some girl walked past me this morning and said to her friend, "Der's dat girl dat be livin on Tommy."
Me
My dreams have been coming true lately. I'm in a sexual relationship with every guy I'm attracted to right now and I'm not taking that for granted. I don't want to scare them off! ;-D The whole thing we have going on is so amazing I just want to make this work out for as long as possible. I've been looking for information about hedonism lately, but I don't think that's my thing. I believe in spirituality and mutual respect, and the self-described "hedonists" I have met are lacking in those areas.
I had something interesting come up last weekend that has come up every time I date multiple guys. Usually the guys I date know each other because I date people in my social circle. There's always one guy who just wants to bang me really bad and thinks that if he does all the things that the guys I fuck do, then he will get to fuck me too. Makes perfect sense, right? I wanted to buy a ticket to a show from one of Tommy's friends and he asked if I was going with Tommy but I told him Tommy wasn't going, so he asked me to roll with him and I just got skittish! This guy had made a comment about how cute I am and what good taste Tommy has once before and I felt sort of objectified at the time. I still wanted the ticket but at the last minute I got too bothered by the idea of going out and having an uncomfortable time with this guy, so I lied and said I was having car trouble and he should find someone else to give the ticket to. Ironically, the next day my car wouldn't start!
Pete
I haven't talked to Pete since the day after our last date, but we had a really good time and we have plans to go to a new year's cabin together. Joanna is moving in mid-December so I'm not expecting much out of Pete before she leaves. I know how I feel when Doug leaves.
**Doug is 36, Pete is 31, Joanna is 27
Thanks to everyone who may be reading along and commenting on my adventure, and I am sorry by anyone who was offended by my use of the term "sex worker" in my first post to describe Joanna - that's just how she describes her profession and I didn't think twice about it.
Dating multiple people with honesty and respect can be challenging and I have found a lot of perspective in online forums throughout my life so I'm glad to be using this as a journal and will soon be switching away from If something especially crazy happens I'll totally post here again.
Doug
Doug, my primary boyfriend man, has been depressed for an assortment of reasons. He's up in another state all alone with a roommate who hits on him all the time, but he's not interested. His dating life isn't very exciting and he hates his expensive academic program. Not to mention his girlfriend is having awesome sex with two other guys.
I miss him a lot and I know exactly how he is feeling all alone up there because I was in exactly the same place not long ago and that is part of our connection. We have been talking on the phone for hours at a time about some issues in the past and just recently our fluid bond. We hadn't defined our fluid bond yet and it's a good thing we did! Doug had the expectation that I would not be swallowing with Pete or Tommy, but my rule (since before I started sleeping with Doug) is that I would love to swallow after we have had negative HIV results. Doug said he didn't want to ask me to not to swallow with them because he knows how great it can be, but I don't mind keeping that for us and encouraged him to express feelings like that. If that is something I can do to make him happier, that only benefits me by protecting me from infections and satisfying my lover. It's a small compromise to make and I hope it eases his concerns.
I was a little abusive to him on the phone because of my period, and I tried to warn him but when I tried to get off the phone before starting a fight with him about something I knew was insignificant, he probed me about my feelings and we got into a fight! I feel awful that he is the only boyfriend who has to deal with my menstrual cycle out of the bunch of them so I have to be more conscientious of that next month.
Tommy
I am all about Tommy right now. I don't often end up dating guys my age** (I am 25) but Tommy is 25 and it's super awesome. It's so relaxing to chill with him at his house. He gets sexier every day. He is open to doing whatever I want, but I feel the same way so since we are both lazy stoners we usually just watch movies and have sex. I told Tommy about my fluid bond rules with Doug and we got Chinese take out last night. We watched the new episode of Misfits and then Hot Shots. He lent me some comfy pants to wear to bed. This morning he had to leave for work around 5 AM but he invited me to sleep in at his house since I am on vacation from school. It's easy for me to get home from his place on the train, so I've had a very leisurely morning. We won't see each other again for the rest of the week because of family obligations and work but I don't even care. It's surreal how good I feel with him.
On my way onto the train platform in his neighborhood, some girl walked past me this morning and said to her friend, "Der's dat girl dat be livin on Tommy."
Me
My dreams have been coming true lately. I'm in a sexual relationship with every guy I'm attracted to right now and I'm not taking that for granted. I don't want to scare them off! ;-D The whole thing we have going on is so amazing I just want to make this work out for as long as possible. I've been looking for information about hedonism lately, but I don't think that's my thing. I believe in spirituality and mutual respect, and the self-described "hedonists" I have met are lacking in those areas.
I had something interesting come up last weekend that has come up every time I date multiple guys. Usually the guys I date know each other because I date people in my social circle. There's always one guy who just wants to bang me really bad and thinks that if he does all the things that the guys I fuck do, then he will get to fuck me too. Makes perfect sense, right? I wanted to buy a ticket to a show from one of Tommy's friends and he asked if I was going with Tommy but I told him Tommy wasn't going, so he asked me to roll with him and I just got skittish! This guy had made a comment about how cute I am and what good taste Tommy has once before and I felt sort of objectified at the time. I still wanted the ticket but at the last minute I got too bothered by the idea of going out and having an uncomfortable time with this guy, so I lied and said I was having car trouble and he should find someone else to give the ticket to. Ironically, the next day my car wouldn't start!
Pete
I haven't talked to Pete since the day after our last date, but we had a really good time and we have plans to go to a new year's cabin together. Joanna is moving in mid-December so I'm not expecting much out of Pete before she leaves. I know how I feel when Doug leaves.
**Doug is 36, Pete is 31, Joanna is 27
Thanks to everyone who may be reading along and commenting on my adventure, and I am sorry by anyone who was offended by my use of the term "sex worker" in my first post to describe Joanna - that's just how she describes her profession and I didn't think twice about it.
Dating multiple people with honesty and respect can be challenging and I have found a lot of perspective in online forums throughout my life so I'm glad to be using this as a journal and will soon be switching away from If something especially crazy happens I'll totally post here again.