crap!

[monnygirl]

This is bull-shit!!!! i only wanted certain people to know- that's why it is called a secret! get over it! if i didn't tell you that means I didnt want u to know in the first place. It was something that i wanted to deal with on my own, but i soon found out that i couldn't keep it to myself so chose a select 3 to tell. If u weren't in that 3 I'm sorry. I obviously didn't trust you or thought it didn't concern you on any level. I'm sorry all this shit has happened, but it has so we are just going to have to live with it. Life goes on! Yes, Louis and I have been seeing each other. That is it! That's the big secret! I had my reasons for keeping it from certain individuals, reasons that I believed to be good ones.

To Laura: I'm sorry!!! I honestly don't know what else to say. I have mixed emotions right now towards this whole thing. I still think that what i did was right on some level. I'm truly sorry that it has come to this but it has. So either we'll get through it like we have everything else, or we just give-up (which is not the option i have chosen personally but if it is yours i will completely understand).

To Christine: I'm sorry that i put you in the middle of this which in turn made you a big part of this!

To Emmy and Jenn: Thanks to your continued support and advice in all I do.

I hope all will be resolved in the end and that no serious and permenant damage was done.

I love you Laura! and i'm still sorry!