I will never know myself until I do this on my own

[monkyzeyez]

Ugh. I can't wait for this semester to be over.

I thought I was finally getting settled into this thing I call my life but I still have so many things undecided. I thought everything I had right now was everything I wanted. But maybe it isn't. I like the idea of having choices and opportunities. Everyone just wants what's best for 'em, right?

Well I'm not so sure I know what that is anymore.

And I don't have nearly as much excitement, randomness, crazyness, fun, spur of the momentness, and don't know whats going to happen next moments in my life. I guess you could say I'm really starting to miss that. My friends and I used to take these road trips, and just end up somewhere. Never knew where we'd end up before hand. Or we'd just get a bunch of us together, do nothing, and have the times of our lives.

It's been a hell of a long time I've done anything like that.

I think maybe I just contemplate all the things in my life too much when I'm alone.

Growing up is inevitable, but being a kid at heart will never change.