Apologies

[monkphin]

OK, I've been in a foul mood of late, I can only apologise to all those affected by this. I've just had a few things going on that I really haven’t dealt with at all too well

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[monkphin]

Since I'm being honest about things right now, one last thing. I took the death of my Uncle a little harder than I let on. The man had a profound affect on the course I took for several years of my life, with me aiming to join the RAF, it was pretty much him talking to me as a child about flying and his time in the service as a teenager that planted the seeds of this in my head.. Sadly, I never got that close to him as I got older, like I do with the rest of my family I kept my distance, suffice to say, due to the cause of his death, it wasnt too big a surprise, but I was still pretty hurt and shocked by it. I'm now just fucking pissed at myself that I never had chance to visit him in hospital, or more likely had other things to be doing/lame excuses that stopped me going.

Its odd, I've missed a few funerals of late, Uncle Kens last year, something I deaply regret missing. Carol my cousins more recently.. So to finally see one of my kin off.. I dunno. In a way it felt kinda nice.. (Not that someone had died, but you know what I mean, maybe?)

I just hope even a fraction the amount of people turn up to mine when I finally give up the ghost as did to his, I never knew quite how many people knew the guy, nor much about his life since after my Nan died and I stopped visiting my Aunties and Uncles as much, or seeing them at hers.