LJ Idol - Week 11 - Sexual Healing

[monkeysugarmama]

Since Eve tempted Adam with an apple, women have used seduction to encourage, manipulate, increase their worth, and assert their power. When I was young, I also used sex to heal. My insecurities, my fear of abandonment, my hyperactive psyche, I discovered I could tame them with sex like the lashing of a dominatrix's whip or concubine’s tongue.

Comments

[xo_kizzy_xo]

Oh, I think he'd remember. I've had guys tell me that most guys, like girls, remember their first. Especially given his background...I'm willing to bet he's probably still confuzzled to this day as to why you broke up with him.

Back in what I call my "slut" (not really, but for me, yeah) days, I purposely stuck to one-night stands with guys I only knew superficially through work or a friend. That's how I absolved my guilt.

[monkeysugarmama]

See, and I rarely had one night stands - I was more of a serial monogamist, which probably broke more hearts, but I was going into each relationship thinking "This is it! He could be the one!'

[eqfe]

"I led him down the path of temptation cunningly, throwing out little bread crumbs to help him keep pace as we ventured deeper into the woods."
No guilt necessary, he thinks fondly of these days and thinks that it was all his idea.
Love the allusions to Wendy. Every man needs one, and I still remember mine fondly almost forty years later.

[monkeysugarmama]

This memory kept calling up all sorts of literary images for me. I think perhaps because so much of how I viewed my actions was within the framework of fairytale and literature.

[rosepurr]

Woman, you can tell a story!

I'm sorry that you still carry this guilt around with you. I think (or maybe hope) that part of adolescence is hurting people as we're learning to be decent human beings.

[monkeysugarmama]

There is a lot of meanness that goes with being a teen. Between the raging hormones and crazy brain development...I fear all sorts of transgressions occur.

Thank you for the compliment - and than you for reading behinda cut. I know you aren't fond of them!

[rosepurr]

I understand why you put this behind a cut. I always enjoy reading you.

[dread_librarian]

oh, my!

i'm suddenly wishing i was a few years younger and had the good fortune to be one of your 'victims'...where were the girls like *you* when i was a teenager?!? ;)

very nicely written! i especially loved how you were able to weave in the 'fairy tale' imagery with the bread crumbs reference. i also liked the dr. seuss nod with 'in the dark, in the park'...that's one of my fave lines from him.

aside from loving to hear your naughty exploits, this was one of your best-written entries. if you wrote like this every week, you'd be hands-down the winner of this thing.

[monkeysugarmama]

I am sure they were around somewhere...you just had to work at the right mall, lol!

Yes - they found "Clark" in the park in the dark (and will our mother like him? We can't say!) I was gettign all kindso f literary references as I tped this one up. I had fun with it - and thank you so much for sayng it was good.

When I sat down and started typing, I had NO idea where I was going. I feel like I write about sex all the damn time, and just last week was chronicaling this kind of thing, so when I saw this week's topic, I was like "Damn! Not again!" Mike was like "Well, write something good and get it all out of your system and then don't visit that again for a while," so that's my plan.

[alycewilson]

Your writing, as always, is stellar.

[monkeysugarmama]

Thank you so very much!