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i almost think i am more scared than anything...
im scared...
-im going to get hurt
-i would hurt him
-that what i was wishing for wouldnt come true
-that what i want isen't whats meant to be
-that i am becoming a bad person
-that i am going to lose my dignity
-that my heart would be broken
and now im scared that he hates me and doesnt want to have anything to do with me.
this is what i wanted and well i got it... and it hurts like nothing i have felt before. but i need this... i need to realize who i really am and how i want to live my life. its not based on his faith or religon... its about mine.
**i love you Ever and i am sorry for putting you through this**
im scared...
-im going to get hurt
-i would hurt him
-that what i was wishing for wouldnt come true
-that what i want isen't whats meant to be
-that i am becoming a bad person
-that i am going to lose my dignity
-that my heart would be broken
and now im scared that he hates me and doesnt want to have anything to do with me.
this is what i wanted and well i got it... and it hurts like nothing i have felt before. but i need this... i need to realize who i really am and how i want to live my life. its not based on his faith or religon... its about mine.
**i love you Ever and i am sorry for putting you through this**