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im hungry...i dont know what to eat though.
i only have about an hour or so and then i have to leave for pageant.
i really hope jesus flys tonight...if he doesnt i think i really will cry. it was a terrible feeling to have last night. after the reaction the audience gave us, im sure the crew worked extra hard to fix whatever went wrong. it was terrible.
today at school was pretty alright. i was in a goofy mood all through out the day. i got a grade update in my geometry class. i have a D but i am staying after school wensday to re-take some tests. and mrs.marshall is being very understanding about the whole pageant thing. shes taking my work as i get it... i appreciate her very much.
i leave next saturday for Florida.
someone make me feel better about going... i feel terrible about leaving Ever here. i want to stay home with him now. but i know this will be good for me and him-- ya know having some distance between us... i dont know maybe it will make our relationship stronger? maybe it will make our parents chill out some? maybe it will help us appreciate what we have togeather?
i dont know. i dont want to leave and something bad happen. i would never forgive myself for leaving. but i trust him and i trust that he wont do anything to hurt me.
*sigh* i dont know what else to talk about. lol i write in this thing alot... sometimes it makes me feel better though... i think. i dont know... i am crazy.
i am going-- Alan just got home... i dont know why either.
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I HOPE JESUS FLYS TONIGHT...he has to go back to heaven! :)
i only have about an hour or so and then i have to leave for pageant.
i really hope jesus flys tonight...if he doesnt i think i really will cry. it was a terrible feeling to have last night. after the reaction the audience gave us, im sure the crew worked extra hard to fix whatever went wrong. it was terrible.
today at school was pretty alright. i was in a goofy mood all through out the day. i got a grade update in my geometry class. i have a D but i am staying after school wensday to re-take some tests. and mrs.marshall is being very understanding about the whole pageant thing. shes taking my work as i get it... i appreciate her very much.
i leave next saturday for Florida.
someone make me feel better about going... i feel terrible about leaving Ever here. i want to stay home with him now. but i know this will be good for me and him-- ya know having some distance between us... i dont know maybe it will make our relationship stronger? maybe it will make our parents chill out some? maybe it will help us appreciate what we have togeather?
i dont know. i dont want to leave and something bad happen. i would never forgive myself for leaving. but i trust him and i trust that he wont do anything to hurt me.
*sigh* i dont know what else to talk about. lol i write in this thing alot... sometimes it makes me feel better though... i think. i dont know... i am crazy.
i am going-- Alan just got home... i dont know why either.
<3
I HOPE JESUS FLYS TONIGHT...he has to go back to heaven! :)