Music
I'm glad there's music in the world. Nothing can connect me to so much as music does.
I was snooping around on David's myspace again... I know... *sigh* I need to stop... This time I actually listened to the songs he posted on his page. Although they're very typical of the music he listens to, there was something about them that communicated a lot to me. I know he set his profile to public again so that I could listen to them... I'm glad I finally did. Each song was as if he was expressing something exclusively to me. It actually helped me to feel better. It doesn't hurt so bad knowing that he's not as shallow and callous as I've been trying to view him as. Maybe seeing him in this light is better for the healing process. It'll be a nice change from all the brooding hate and resentment I keep bottled up.
I still love him and that's not a bad thing. It's much better now that I know he still loves me too.
I talked to John Ho the other night. It was really nice to get in touch with him again. He gave me a lot of inspiration and comfort. I often forget that I'm not alone in my misery. It's reassuring to know that despite how much I feel I may be suffering, there's someone who is in just as much of a stitch. I'm so thankful for his optimism and support...
He helped me to realize that I deserve happiness and that I shouldn't depend on someone else to make that happen for me. This may be the hardest lesson I've ever had to learn, but I'm so thankful that I have the help of my friends and family.
Cheers.
I was snooping around on David's myspace again... I know... *sigh* I need to stop... This time I actually listened to the songs he posted on his page. Although they're very typical of the music he listens to, there was something about them that communicated a lot to me. I know he set his profile to public again so that I could listen to them... I'm glad I finally did. Each song was as if he was expressing something exclusively to me. It actually helped me to feel better. It doesn't hurt so bad knowing that he's not as shallow and callous as I've been trying to view him as. Maybe seeing him in this light is better for the healing process. It'll be a nice change from all the brooding hate and resentment I keep bottled up.
I still love him and that's not a bad thing. It's much better now that I know he still loves me too.
I talked to John Ho the other night. It was really nice to get in touch with him again. He gave me a lot of inspiration and comfort. I often forget that I'm not alone in my misery. It's reassuring to know that despite how much I feel I may be suffering, there's someone who is in just as much of a stitch. I'm so thankful for his optimism and support...
He helped me to realize that I deserve happiness and that I shouldn't depend on someone else to make that happen for me. This may be the hardest lesson I've ever had to learn, but I'm so thankful that I have the help of my friends and family.
Cheers.