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Crap Crap Crap...
I am so confused right now with my relationship with ed...first we go out everything is going good...then we break up for like a week...then we go back out and i thought everything wuz going good until something happened today and i realized that things might not work out the way we wanted them to...so now i guess we r kinda on a "break" or some crap like that and he said we're going to talk again on thursday to c what we're going to do and i have a very strong feeling that we r going to break up again...its just not going to work..i want it to...i want it to more then anything becuz i really do have strong feelings for him and everything but i dunno....
Out of the 3 boyfriends i have had the 1st one is the only one that i felt like everything wuz perfect...i wuz really in love with him and then one thing messed that all up...i want more than anything to just have that again...to b in a realtionship where we both feel the same way for eachother and everything feels right...some ppl say that u only have one true love out there that ur suppose to spend the rest of ur life with and i think my 1st b/f wuz that...and if he wuz then i lost out on a really great thing...i know i will meet soo many guys in my life but i don't think i will every b so comfortable with a guy as i wuz with him....i dunno
*toodles*
~Jaci