Oh, and... blah.
I've been feeling kind of empty lately. I've got most of what I want -- some time to myself, some time with friends, no "serious" problems hanging over my head -- but there's no direction to anything. I feel like I should be able to step back and enjoy what I've got, but I never really get a chance.
I think part of it is that I haven't really done anything constructive in a while. I haven't been writing, I haven't been doing anything creative, really. I play a lot of video games, and it relaxes me and I enjoy it very much. But at the end of the day, I don't feel like I've accomplished much.
Also, I feel distanced from a lot of people. Pretty much everyone, actually. Socializing seems forced, even though I love the people around me and wouldn't trade my friends for the world. It just feels like it's been hard for me to have a good time lately, although that view is mostly retrospective. I had some great fun this past weekend, thinking back on it.
It's possible that this is just a mood that will pass. I've also got a long weekend coming up which may give me the opportunity to decompress and get a little bit of time to breathe.
But what I really need is a project. I wish I had the focus to stick with a writing project, because that sounds super appealing... until I start thinking about the inevitable loss of interest that plagues me every time I start writing.
On the other hand, LittleBigPlanet is extremely fun and has provided a great diversion.
I think part of it is that I haven't really done anything constructive in a while. I haven't been writing, I haven't been doing anything creative, really. I play a lot of video games, and it relaxes me and I enjoy it very much. But at the end of the day, I don't feel like I've accomplished much.
Also, I feel distanced from a lot of people. Pretty much everyone, actually. Socializing seems forced, even though I love the people around me and wouldn't trade my friends for the world. It just feels like it's been hard for me to have a good time lately, although that view is mostly retrospective. I had some great fun this past weekend, thinking back on it.
It's possible that this is just a mood that will pass. I've also got a long weekend coming up which may give me the opportunity to decompress and get a little bit of time to breathe.
But what I really need is a project. I wish I had the focus to stick with a writing project, because that sounds super appealing... until I start thinking about the inevitable loss of interest that plagues me every time I start writing.
On the other hand, LittleBigPlanet is extremely fun and has provided a great diversion.