The Murder He Wrote [Final] Book 1: Siwon
The Murder He Wrote [Final] Book 1: Siwon
PG-13 | Horror, AU, Romance | HaeHyuk, SiHyuk |
Book 1 [Part 1]: Turning Evil
Title: The Day I don't want to remember not even until i die.
"Pa...s-stop. You're hurting mom!"
I said, my voice was terribly pleading and kneeling and i can't help but watch as my father tortured my mother to death, almost killing her.
I can't stop him from doing so. I can't. It was like my father was being possessed by a devil.
"Appa!"
I shouted, very loud so that my father could hear me but, it was no use as he still beat, punch and kick my mom mercilessly. Still possessed by the devil.
"Appa, please stop it now!"
I plead once again and i sighed when my father stops and freed my mother and goes to the kitchen afterwards. Maybe to calm himself.
"Umma..."
I called and crawled my way over my mom and touched her cheeks.
My mom, with the little bit of strenght left on her, she caresses my cheeks and speaks hoarsely,
"B-be strong, my son... Don't be like...your father."
She said that made my head nod in agreement. I made a promise to my mom and i will never break that.
"B-but...never condemn him...he just loves you--"
A scream coming from my lips came next to me as my father came back and dragged my mother towards the kitchen and locks the door afterwards. With me crying endlessly outside, banging the door, begging for my father to open it but, my pleas were not good enough. It didn't caused my father to break through of being possessed. It even got worse as i hear my mother's scream on the other side, a very helpless scream; short and hoarse; then i knew, i won't see my mom ever again.
I crawled backwards, with my small hands and short legs to pull me away from the kitchen room. I wasn't far away when the door opens and revealed my bloody father, my mother's blood all over his shirt. He came to me and scooped me on the ground, hugging me tight. I didn't do anything, not even trying to breakfree. I was waiting for my life to end right after but, it didn't happened and instead, my father just whispered into my ears,
"I-I'm sorry, Siwon. My son. This is for you. I made this for you. You have to live. You have to."
I don't understand what he's trying to say to me until my mother's funeral came and heard my father talking to an agent of the life insurance company, letting him signed a paper: a piece of paper with a huge amount of money in exchange of my mother's life.
I walked out, far away from the place where my mother was going to be buried. Walking backwards, i left a single tear for my mother as a way of saying goodbye to her and told myself repeatedly:
"This is all for you, Siwon. A life is equivalent to money."
..........................
A smiled grimly as i closed my diary and put it inside the drawer on the bedside table. I wiped the forming tears away and stood up, looking at the sleeping Hyukjae on the bed.
"I thought when i killed you back then, i can live normally. But, you showed up once again and i thought i can change everything. I am truly sorry for disregarding my love for you and instead, i used the devil side of me to kill you. You're right here with me now so we can both start anew. I will be a good husband now and treat you right. After i kill Donghae, nothing can ever separate from me to you. No one will ever dare to take you away from me. No one. Not even God."
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Book 1 [Part 2]: The Nightmare
"Hyukkie...will you marry me?" I asked cornering Hyukjae by pinning him on the wall with my hands on both sides so he couldn't escape.
"O-of course! Siwon! I...I will marry you!" Hyukjae answered as tears streamed down his eyes.
I smirked and i knew, Hyukjae is finally mine.
...............
"Hyukkie, we will be leaving the city. Let's go home to Busan. I bought a house there with a help from a friend living in there. you'll love it!" I stated enthusiastically while we're eating dinner.
Hyukjae smiles and nodded in agreement. "Wherever you'll take me Siwonnie, I know I will love it because you're always be with me."
I smiled from ear to ear knowing that I will always own Hyukjae and nobody will ever dare to steal him from me.
.................
"Siwonnie! You arrived early!" Hyukjae said startled to see me in the house so soon.
"Who's he, Hyukkie?" I asked, raising an eyebrow at the unwanted visitor though, i clearly know who it was.
"This is Donghae. My best friend way back in high school? Didn't you remember him?" Hyukjae asked and the guy who was comfortably sitting on the couch, stood up and tapped my shoulder and whispered,
"Hyukjae loves you, you should remember that."
I know. I clearly know that. And after seeing that guy frequently, my eyes suddenly turn black, even the whites on my eyes became black...and saw death ahead of me.
.......................
"I told you to stop seeing Hyukjae, didn't i made that clear to you?" I growled while eyeing Donghae evilly. I cornered him before Hyukjae could see him when he tried to visit my wife once again and dragged the man to the forest not far away from the house.
"I told you too, way back then, that i won't stop seeing Hyukjae. Even if you take him to hell, I will still come and see him." the guy insisted that made my blood boils down to the dead end of my patience.
"You will never and EVER see him again, are we clear?!" I yelled to his face, shouting out the words to make him understand that i won't ever let Hyukjae meet him. Even in Hell. I'll make sure Hyukjae will reach Heaven and Donghae...better be in hell.
"No, I'm sorry Siwon. I can't do that. I don't know why Hyukjae liked you in the first place...when all i can see is a devil in disguise right in front of me. Why it has to be Hyukjae? Why did Hyukjae fall in love with you?" He asked, scoffing.
And after hearing that, i never thought Donghae will be the first. I watched him fell lifelessly on the ground and with the little bit of strenght left from him, he whispered the words that made me more evil than i already was.
"Hyukjae...will never be yours."
..............................
“Hyukjae…” I called while touching his face. “Hyukjae, please wake up.”
“Hae…?”
my palm reaches my captive's cheek and then the eyes the same as Hyukjae's flustered open at the sudden pain. He touches his red cheek and sits up from the bed he was laying and looked at me with those woobly eyes that seeks for 911.
“Hae once again? Aren’t you tired calling him over and over again, huh?!” I asked in rage, getting tired from hearing the same name over and over again.
“O-once again…? W-what are you t-talking about A-Ajusshi?” Hyukjae asked, terrified.
Walking through the hallway, with a book on my hand, I caught a glimpse of two guys sitting on top of the cemented balcony on the first floor of the college building. And the two were busy playing-no flirting with each other as I can see.
My eyes narrowed upon seeing Hyukjae, my boyfriend smiling like a crazy love fool to the guy next to him and the guy was busy keeping ‘his Hyukjae’s’ hands occupied as he traps it inside his own ones.
A sudden rage of dark emotions came over me. Well, who wouldn’t be angry seeing your boyfriend flirting with his best friend? Yeah. His best friend. The guy was Kim Donghae and was in the same class as Hyukjae while he was on the other class that frustrates him more.
Without any hesitation, I walked to their place and kept the book on my side as my other hand kept hidden inside my pocket, knuckles ready to start a war.
“Hyuk.”
I called with a poker face. I then look at his best friend before turning back my gaze at Hyukjae who naively didn’t get my gesture.
He’s still holding the guy’s hand for Pete’s sake!
“Siwonnie…Hae and I are talking about Yesung Hyung’s turtle and Ryeowook’s jealousness towards Ddangkkoma.”
Hyukjae informed but I didn’t bought it. I didn’t budge and just stare at Hyukjae.
“Siwonnie?”
He called but I’m still in my own world of jealousy where I’m thinking about hanging his best friend upside down in the tallest tree around the vicinity.
“Hyukjae and I are bonding. You don’t have to show that face to him.”
The guy said and stood up, tapping my shoulder before walking away with his hand waving at Hyukjae while the other inserted inside his pocket.
“Hae!”
Hyukjae called but I stood up in front of him, blocking his vision in seeing his best friend walking away.
“Siwon! That was rude! What does he mean by saying that?!”
“He’s saying that you are clearly and absolutely mine.”
I said, looking at Hyukjae intently, fiercely.
“Y-you don’t have to s-say that…”
My Hyukjae answered, smiling. And I smiled too, with my dimples showing out in victory. Hyukjae is still mine.
“But that was not for long. You know, Hyukjae, I thought I had you already. But before I could ask you to marry me, someone already did.”
“W-what are you talking about now?”
It was the school festival when I heard the news about Hyukjae and that guy getting married.
I hastily run outside the bible study room where we’re holding a meeting. I cursed inside my head for letting Hyukjae roams around the school without him. Though, the bible study is important, Hyukjae is way, way more important than bible studying because I’m going to ask him to marry me after graduation. I know god will understand me.
But, what did that guy do? I overrated him. I overrated his capacity. I know he’s feeling something towards Hyukjae. It’s a guy instinct. I just know it.
Catching my breath, I stopped in front of the classroom that was in charge of the “I do” booth and frowned when I didn’t find any sign of the two.
“Where are Hyukjae and Donghae?” I asked the student who’s on his way out of the room.
“I don’t know. Donghae just took Hyukjae away.” The student shrugged.
And all I can see now is Red and Death.
“But, I don’t know why you suddenly accepted my proposal after that incident. You made me confused but it also made me happy. Tsk. You made me crazy; didn’t you know that, Hyukjae? Didn’t you?”
“A-Ajusshi…I didn’t k-know what y-you’re talking about…”
“Of course, you don’t; because you’re not my Hyukjae anymore. You ran away together with that bastard!” He exclaimed.
“W-what is wrong with you Ajusshi! A-are you gone c-crazy?!” Hyukjae exclaimed, scared out of his wits.
“YEAH! I’ve gone crazy! And that’s all because of you! You don’t know how much I suffered while you keep on flirting with him while I was gone working my butt off for the two of us! I even took you here in the middle of the forest and bought a house so that he can’t follow us. BUT WHAT DID YOU DO?! You let him know where you are! You led him here to get you out of my life! What am I to you? A toy you can use? How dare you Hyukjae! How dare you!”
I yelled on top of my lungs, growling like an angry bear. I then took the lampshade beside the bed, on the night table and hit Eunhyuk’s head that made him unconscious after just like eating a poison apple.
But, Eunhyuk’s nightmare didn’t end here.
It’s just only the beginning of even worse nightmare ahead of him…
"You're only mine, Hyukjae. Only mine. And this time, i'm going to end his life for the second time."
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Book 1 [Part 3]: It's a Trap.
While my captive is still unconscious after hitting him hard with the lampshade, i went downstairs, going to the basement. After unlocking the door, i went straight to my toolbox, my old toolbox where all of the tools i used for Hyukjae where there, kept hidden. Some had still evidences of his blood, already dried and some were already cleaned, ready for its next victim.
I took out a special knife that has been already sharpened and while looking at it shines in the dim light of the room, i know it is ready to pierce the heart of its next target.
"You two will both connect with this somehow. The same knife i used to kill my wife will also be the one to take out your life, Donghae. You'll see...You'll be with Hyukjae pretty soon. And Eunhyuk will be mine...forever."
An evil laugh escape through my lips. I laughed for my victory that i will soon taste once my target came to rescue his princess.
I will be all ready when that time comes and i will be surely waiting for him to come.
We'll see who will have Eunhyuk with him. He'll see.
I take the knife down at the table top, beside my toolbox and walks to the stairs and left the house, going to the Church.
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"None of us are saints."
I swallowed hard as i hear the door creaked open on the other side. Bits of sweats forming on the sides of my face, making me feel uneasy kneeling on the kneeler inside the confessional room.
"I-In the name of the F-father, and of the S-son, and of the H-holy Spirit. My uh, last confession was... a-a... month ago."
I started shakily, nervous as my hands keep on shaking and sweating.
"Is this your first time to confess, my son?"
I got startled at the sudden question the priest on the other side of the screen asked. I swallowed once again before opening my mouth to speak.
"N-no f-father...I..I'm just...n-nervous, that's all."
I answered, my lips quivering, still shaking.
"Don't be my child. Don't be scared in front of God 'cause whatever your sins are, God will forgive you."
The priest told me that made me choked my own saliva. Should i believe what the priest had said? That, God will forgive me? Will He? I don't think so.
"So, you can start confessing your sins now, my son." The priest said after a short pause.
"I..." I started, doubting about telling him what i have done. The gravest sin a christian would do: by turning against the Lord.
"Go on. God will never forsake you, my son." The priest provoked.
"I....w-will He forgive me f-for...the sins that i have done?"
"He will, my son. He will not condemn his children. Never he will hate you nor your brothers and sisters." The priest assured that makes me a little bit relieved yet there's this conscience inside my head saying He won't. God will never and ever forgive me. Never.
"I-I'm sorry F-father.... for I...have..." I paused, thinking about saying my sin or not. "...k-killed--someone."
I confessed and breathe a heavy sigh afterwards. Though, i know the burden in my heart will never subside, saying my greatest secret I can never tell to anybody else means a little chance of seeing the light and walking through the right path once more--but maybe, not anymore.
The priest seems shocked to hear my confession as the room filled with silence and after a minute or two, the priest cleared his throat before giving my penance--preaching me rather.
"...You neglected God who created you. You...lost your faith in Him. You denied Him, my son."
"Y-yes I do. A-and I...am truly and deeply sorry for that. I...I wasn't on my right mind when I...did that to my wife...He's too precious to me to be owned by someone... I was...broke and I...was too scared to lose Hyukjae...I was scared." I broke down inside, tears welling up in my eyes, i can't let the tears stop pouring down.
"You loved too much that caused you to be blinded by it. You didn't see what you're becoming because all that mattered to you was being the best you can be for your wife but, it turned out the opposite. You were blinded by jealousy, greed, lack of faith and trust."
"..." Barely knowing what to say, i stayed silent. i don't want to try and comment on that fact. yeah, guilty indeed.
"So, how did you conclude in killing your wife, then? What made you do the gravest sin you could ever done?"
"I, I... turned evil."
"You let evil entered you, my son. I can't help you. Only you can help yourself find your way back to the light."
After hearing the priest's comment on what i said, I walked out of the room, never bothered to hear my penance and just signed of the cross after, going back home.
In the name of the Father, and of the Son. And of the Holy Spirit.
Amen.
"Give thanks to the Lord for He is good,"
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A/N: so finally, i can be able to post this chapter.. This final chapter will be cut into three parts and the first part is Siwon...
i'm not really sure about this but, i hope this better be good. lol..
i'm sorry if this horror is a low budgeted quality of mind, my dear readers...^^ i'm not really a good writer anyway..^^
well, this chapter is still on-going.. i'm not yet done with the last part.. so a little patience will do, guys.. ^^
anyways.. again.. this was inspired by F.O.B's songs and Our Lady Peace..just so you know.. one of my fave bands that has great songs... ^^
thanks for reading in advance!!! ♥
God Bless everyone! ♥
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PG-13 | Horror, AU, Romance | HaeHyuk, SiHyuk |
Book 1 [Part 1]: Turning Evil
Title: The Day I don't want to remember not even until i die.
"Pa...s-stop. You're hurting mom!"
I said, my voice was terribly pleading and kneeling and i can't help but watch as my father tortured my mother to death, almost killing her.
I can't stop him from doing so. I can't. It was like my father was being possessed by a devil.
"Appa!"
I shouted, very loud so that my father could hear me but, it was no use as he still beat, punch and kick my mom mercilessly. Still possessed by the devil.
"Appa, please stop it now!"
I plead once again and i sighed when my father stops and freed my mother and goes to the kitchen afterwards. Maybe to calm himself.
"Umma..."
I called and crawled my way over my mom and touched her cheeks.
My mom, with the little bit of strenght left on her, she caresses my cheeks and speaks hoarsely,
"B-be strong, my son... Don't be like...your father."
She said that made my head nod in agreement. I made a promise to my mom and i will never break that.
"B-but...never condemn him...he just loves you--"
A scream coming from my lips came next to me as my father came back and dragged my mother towards the kitchen and locks the door afterwards. With me crying endlessly outside, banging the door, begging for my father to open it but, my pleas were not good enough. It didn't caused my father to break through of being possessed. It even got worse as i hear my mother's scream on the other side, a very helpless scream; short and hoarse; then i knew, i won't see my mom ever again.
I crawled backwards, with my small hands and short legs to pull me away from the kitchen room. I wasn't far away when the door opens and revealed my bloody father, my mother's blood all over his shirt. He came to me and scooped me on the ground, hugging me tight. I didn't do anything, not even trying to breakfree. I was waiting for my life to end right after but, it didn't happened and instead, my father just whispered into my ears,
"I-I'm sorry, Siwon. My son. This is for you. I made this for you. You have to live. You have to."
I don't understand what he's trying to say to me until my mother's funeral came and heard my father talking to an agent of the life insurance company, letting him signed a paper: a piece of paper with a huge amount of money in exchange of my mother's life.
I walked out, far away from the place where my mother was going to be buried. Walking backwards, i left a single tear for my mother as a way of saying goodbye to her and told myself repeatedly:
"This is all for you, Siwon. A life is equivalent to money."
..........................
A smiled grimly as i closed my diary and put it inside the drawer on the bedside table. I wiped the forming tears away and stood up, looking at the sleeping Hyukjae on the bed.
"I thought when i killed you back then, i can live normally. But, you showed up once again and i thought i can change everything. I am truly sorry for disregarding my love for you and instead, i used the devil side of me to kill you. You're right here with me now so we can both start anew. I will be a good husband now and treat you right. After i kill Donghae, nothing can ever separate from me to you. No one will ever dare to take you away from me. No one. Not even God."
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Book 1 [Part 2]: The Nightmare
"Hyukkie...will you marry me?" I asked cornering Hyukjae by pinning him on the wall with my hands on both sides so he couldn't escape.
"O-of course! Siwon! I...I will marry you!" Hyukjae answered as tears streamed down his eyes.
I smirked and i knew, Hyukjae is finally mine.
...............
"Hyukkie, we will be leaving the city. Let's go home to Busan. I bought a house there with a help from a friend living in there. you'll love it!" I stated enthusiastically while we're eating dinner.
Hyukjae smiles and nodded in agreement. "Wherever you'll take me Siwonnie, I know I will love it because you're always be with me."
I smiled from ear to ear knowing that I will always own Hyukjae and nobody will ever dare to steal him from me.
.................
"Siwonnie! You arrived early!" Hyukjae said startled to see me in the house so soon.
"Who's he, Hyukkie?" I asked, raising an eyebrow at the unwanted visitor though, i clearly know who it was.
"This is Donghae. My best friend way back in high school? Didn't you remember him?" Hyukjae asked and the guy who was comfortably sitting on the couch, stood up and tapped my shoulder and whispered,
"Hyukjae loves you, you should remember that."
I know. I clearly know that. And after seeing that guy frequently, my eyes suddenly turn black, even the whites on my eyes became black...and saw death ahead of me.
.......................
"I told you to stop seeing Hyukjae, didn't i made that clear to you?" I growled while eyeing Donghae evilly. I cornered him before Hyukjae could see him when he tried to visit my wife once again and dragged the man to the forest not far away from the house.
"I told you too, way back then, that i won't stop seeing Hyukjae. Even if you take him to hell, I will still come and see him." the guy insisted that made my blood boils down to the dead end of my patience.
"You will never and EVER see him again, are we clear?!" I yelled to his face, shouting out the words to make him understand that i won't ever let Hyukjae meet him. Even in Hell. I'll make sure Hyukjae will reach Heaven and Donghae...better be in hell.
"No, I'm sorry Siwon. I can't do that. I don't know why Hyukjae liked you in the first place...when all i can see is a devil in disguise right in front of me. Why it has to be Hyukjae? Why did Hyukjae fall in love with you?" He asked, scoffing.
And after hearing that, i never thought Donghae will be the first. I watched him fell lifelessly on the ground and with the little bit of strenght left from him, he whispered the words that made me more evil than i already was.
"Hyukjae...will never be yours."
..............................
“Hyukjae…” I called while touching his face. “Hyukjae, please wake up.”
“Hae…?”
my palm reaches my captive's cheek and then the eyes the same as Hyukjae's flustered open at the sudden pain. He touches his red cheek and sits up from the bed he was laying and looked at me with those woobly eyes that seeks for 911.
“Hae once again? Aren’t you tired calling him over and over again, huh?!” I asked in rage, getting tired from hearing the same name over and over again.
“O-once again…? W-what are you t-talking about A-Ajusshi?” Hyukjae asked, terrified.
Walking through the hallway, with a book on my hand, I caught a glimpse of two guys sitting on top of the cemented balcony on the first floor of the college building. And the two were busy playing-no flirting with each other as I can see.
My eyes narrowed upon seeing Hyukjae, my boyfriend smiling like a crazy love fool to the guy next to him and the guy was busy keeping ‘his Hyukjae’s’ hands occupied as he traps it inside his own ones.
A sudden rage of dark emotions came over me. Well, who wouldn’t be angry seeing your boyfriend flirting with his best friend? Yeah. His best friend. The guy was Kim Donghae and was in the same class as Hyukjae while he was on the other class that frustrates him more.
Without any hesitation, I walked to their place and kept the book on my side as my other hand kept hidden inside my pocket, knuckles ready to start a war.
“Hyuk.”
I called with a poker face. I then look at his best friend before turning back my gaze at Hyukjae who naively didn’t get my gesture.
He’s still holding the guy’s hand for Pete’s sake!
“Siwonnie…Hae and I are talking about Yesung Hyung’s turtle and Ryeowook’s jealousness towards Ddangkkoma.”
Hyukjae informed but I didn’t bought it. I didn’t budge and just stare at Hyukjae.
“Siwonnie?”
He called but I’m still in my own world of jealousy where I’m thinking about hanging his best friend upside down in the tallest tree around the vicinity.
“Hyukjae and I are bonding. You don’t have to show that face to him.”
The guy said and stood up, tapping my shoulder before walking away with his hand waving at Hyukjae while the other inserted inside his pocket.
“Hae!”
Hyukjae called but I stood up in front of him, blocking his vision in seeing his best friend walking away.
“Siwon! That was rude! What does he mean by saying that?!”
“He’s saying that you are clearly and absolutely mine.”
I said, looking at Hyukjae intently, fiercely.
“Y-you don’t have to s-say that…”
My Hyukjae answered, smiling. And I smiled too, with my dimples showing out in victory. Hyukjae is still mine.
“But that was not for long. You know, Hyukjae, I thought I had you already. But before I could ask you to marry me, someone already did.”
“W-what are you talking about now?”
It was the school festival when I heard the news about Hyukjae and that guy getting married.
I hastily run outside the bible study room where we’re holding a meeting. I cursed inside my head for letting Hyukjae roams around the school without him. Though, the bible study is important, Hyukjae is way, way more important than bible studying because I’m going to ask him to marry me after graduation. I know god will understand me.
But, what did that guy do? I overrated him. I overrated his capacity. I know he’s feeling something towards Hyukjae. It’s a guy instinct. I just know it.
Catching my breath, I stopped in front of the classroom that was in charge of the “I do” booth and frowned when I didn’t find any sign of the two.
“Where are Hyukjae and Donghae?” I asked the student who’s on his way out of the room.
“I don’t know. Donghae just took Hyukjae away.” The student shrugged.
And all I can see now is Red and Death.
“But, I don’t know why you suddenly accepted my proposal after that incident. You made me confused but it also made me happy. Tsk. You made me crazy; didn’t you know that, Hyukjae? Didn’t you?”
“A-Ajusshi…I didn’t k-know what y-you’re talking about…”
“Of course, you don’t; because you’re not my Hyukjae anymore. You ran away together with that bastard!” He exclaimed.
“W-what is wrong with you Ajusshi! A-are you gone c-crazy?!” Hyukjae exclaimed, scared out of his wits.
“YEAH! I’ve gone crazy! And that’s all because of you! You don’t know how much I suffered while you keep on flirting with him while I was gone working my butt off for the two of us! I even took you here in the middle of the forest and bought a house so that he can’t follow us. BUT WHAT DID YOU DO?! You let him know where you are! You led him here to get you out of my life! What am I to you? A toy you can use? How dare you Hyukjae! How dare you!”
I yelled on top of my lungs, growling like an angry bear. I then took the lampshade beside the bed, on the night table and hit Eunhyuk’s head that made him unconscious after just like eating a poison apple.
But, Eunhyuk’s nightmare didn’t end here.
It’s just only the beginning of even worse nightmare ahead of him…
"You're only mine, Hyukjae. Only mine. And this time, i'm going to end his life for the second time."
.....................................
Book 1 [Part 3]: It's a Trap.
While my captive is still unconscious after hitting him hard with the lampshade, i went downstairs, going to the basement. After unlocking the door, i went straight to my toolbox, my old toolbox where all of the tools i used for Hyukjae where there, kept hidden. Some had still evidences of his blood, already dried and some were already cleaned, ready for its next victim.
I took out a special knife that has been already sharpened and while looking at it shines in the dim light of the room, i know it is ready to pierce the heart of its next target.
"You two will both connect with this somehow. The same knife i used to kill my wife will also be the one to take out your life, Donghae. You'll see...You'll be with Hyukjae pretty soon. And Eunhyuk will be mine...forever."
An evil laugh escape through my lips. I laughed for my victory that i will soon taste once my target came to rescue his princess.
I will be all ready when that time comes and i will be surely waiting for him to come.
We'll see who will have Eunhyuk with him. He'll see.
I take the knife down at the table top, beside my toolbox and walks to the stairs and left the house, going to the Church.
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"None of us are saints."
I swallowed hard as i hear the door creaked open on the other side. Bits of sweats forming on the sides of my face, making me feel uneasy kneeling on the kneeler inside the confessional room.
"I-In the name of the F-father, and of the S-son, and of the H-holy Spirit. My uh, last confession was... a-a... month ago."
I started shakily, nervous as my hands keep on shaking and sweating.
"Is this your first time to confess, my son?"
I got startled at the sudden question the priest on the other side of the screen asked. I swallowed once again before opening my mouth to speak.
"N-no f-father...I..I'm just...n-nervous, that's all."
I answered, my lips quivering, still shaking.
"Don't be my child. Don't be scared in front of God 'cause whatever your sins are, God will forgive you."
The priest told me that made me choked my own saliva. Should i believe what the priest had said? That, God will forgive me? Will He? I don't think so.
"So, you can start confessing your sins now, my son." The priest said after a short pause.
"I..." I started, doubting about telling him what i have done. The gravest sin a christian would do: by turning against the Lord.
"Go on. God will never forsake you, my son." The priest provoked.
"I....w-will He forgive me f-for...the sins that i have done?"
"He will, my son. He will not condemn his children. Never he will hate you nor your brothers and sisters." The priest assured that makes me a little bit relieved yet there's this conscience inside my head saying He won't. God will never and ever forgive me. Never.
"I-I'm sorry F-father.... for I...have..." I paused, thinking about saying my sin or not. "...k-killed--someone."
I confessed and breathe a heavy sigh afterwards. Though, i know the burden in my heart will never subside, saying my greatest secret I can never tell to anybody else means a little chance of seeing the light and walking through the right path once more--but maybe, not anymore.
The priest seems shocked to hear my confession as the room filled with silence and after a minute or two, the priest cleared his throat before giving my penance--preaching me rather.
"...You neglected God who created you. You...lost your faith in Him. You denied Him, my son."
"Y-yes I do. A-and I...am truly and deeply sorry for that. I...I wasn't on my right mind when I...did that to my wife...He's too precious to me to be owned by someone... I was...broke and I...was too scared to lose Hyukjae...I was scared." I broke down inside, tears welling up in my eyes, i can't let the tears stop pouring down.
"You loved too much that caused you to be blinded by it. You didn't see what you're becoming because all that mattered to you was being the best you can be for your wife but, it turned out the opposite. You were blinded by jealousy, greed, lack of faith and trust."
"..." Barely knowing what to say, i stayed silent. i don't want to try and comment on that fact. yeah, guilty indeed.
"So, how did you conclude in killing your wife, then? What made you do the gravest sin you could ever done?"
"I, I... turned evil."
"You let evil entered you, my son. I can't help you. Only you can help yourself find your way back to the light."
After hearing the priest's comment on what i said, I walked out of the room, never bothered to hear my penance and just signed of the cross after, going back home.
In the name of the Father, and of the Son. And of the Holy Spirit.
Amen.
"Give thanks to the Lord for He is good,"
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A/N: so finally, i can be able to post this chapter.. This final chapter will be cut into three parts and the first part is Siwon...
i'm not really sure about this but, i hope this better be good. lol..
i'm sorry if this horror is a low budgeted quality of mind, my dear readers...^^ i'm not really a good writer anyway..^^
well, this chapter is still on-going.. i'm not yet done with the last part.. so a little patience will do, guys.. ^^
anyways.. again.. this was inspired by F.O.B's songs and Our Lady Peace..just so you know.. one of my fave bands that has great songs... ^^
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