Coffin Nails

[monkeyfunk]

OK, so my dear LJ and its accompanying audience, I've a confession to make. I've been lying to you. Well, not so much lying as not telling you. Non disclosure of facts. A little white lie, if you will. You see, I've started smoking again. Not insanely, like I used to. I bought a pack about three weeks back and have been working my way through it.

Comments

[sourpuss]

i started smoking so id have something in common with this worthless bloke i fancied when i was 16. youre not the only one with a dumb reason. and ive quit here and there, once for nearly three years, but im puffin away again now. and it tastes like crap and makes me feel sick and i have NO idea why i do it, except, yeah.. the whole activity seems to help sadness.

[monkeyfunk]

It's such a shame there is no readily available alternative that has no drawbacks. It's really like an act of futility, everything tells you the smoking is wrong and pointless, but you do it like some crack addicted lab rat in the hope of some form of absolution, some reward, something to heal the wound.

[filthwizard]

i just feel honoured that i already knew your dirty little secret :)

[obscurek]

Sometimes I'm rather amazed by what I read in your journal. I was quite the militant anti-smoker as a child and all through my teens. I even went so far as to wrap entire rolls of scotch tape around all the ashtrays at my convenience store place of work to discourage my manager and the full timers. None of my friends smoked and I never felt any pressure to do so either

[monkeyfunk]

Someone in awe of me? That's quite weird hehe. But yea.. I guess some people's life paths can be all too familiar. Drifting into smoking and through education is one that's probably been told many times before. I said some time ago that I thought I would turn into you in the future.. perhaps the process has already begun....

[greener_grasses]

so since you've confessed to me, i shall confess back. i have started smoking again. i always say i dont smoke habitually. i used to smoke in highschool and i could just stop and start and never notice it affecting me. in college i did the same. this time i think i've been smoking just enough to make a difference. and this scares me, cause i certainly do not wish to become addicted. to anything, much less this. so yesterday i sayd i would not smoke at all. self control. but i failed. i smoked just one, but i failed just the same. i'd like to say i will not smoke today, which so far i havent, but i'd hate to fail again. and that is pathetic to me. that i cannot even keep myself from lighting this stick of stinky smoke and inhailing. bah!

[crazyrants]

Never touched a cigarette until I was 22. Became a habitual smoker at 27. Who the fuck starts smoking at 27? I am the biggest dork.