it so appears
that the one thing i want
i shall not recieve
and the one that i wish beyond WISH i didnt want
i will neither get, nor cease to
i couldve sworn these things went away...why WHY do i still want that? WHY do i still want you. it is completely illogical. COMPLETELY illogical. dear self, ILLOGICAL. fuuuuck *pulls out hair because i swear, this has never happened before. this is not me.
but it also appears. i have a sister. and that is a constant.
and i have friends. real ones. weird?
i certainly thought so
but no.
ive been sucking because i havent been seeing what was right there, right in front of me. you guys are awesome. and youre not my buddies. youre my friends.
and i wish i were smarter.
and i wish i was unblind
but im so fucking glad that its okay anyway. that yall are still there. right where i last saw you. but its different now. and noone could possibly know what the fuck im rambling about. but ill tell you, ive heard nothing from the trees in these past few weeks. and today
is a beautiful day.
and plus,
i can have sex with anyone i want *tongue out*
on this day a few years ago a fuckin cute kid was born. :) ...you might think im pompous, but no. really.