we gots a hot/cold water dispenser at work!
i got a text from my sister this morning asking if i ever woke up wishing i was someone else. for the first time in a long time my immediate answer was no... but not because i am deliriously happy... that shit's for saps, but because i know i could be in another's shoes and i'd still have something negative to say about it. so, here i am... stuck with me - no wishes for changing that - just thoughts of changing most other things. i want a desk job... something i don't have to think about doing... where i don't have to interact with anyone other than over the phone if i choose... where my brain can rest. i want to live in the mountains with my family, and wake up every morning wanting to come out and see the sun and the trees and the smiling faces of those i love. long days spent taking in life, appreciating one another, chatting over endless cups of coffee. i disposed of the stickies on my work computer reminding me of shit i can't forget... until the next round comes along. countdown till my coworker gets canned, i wish it was me collecting compensation for not working out opposed to working and working and working... vacation just doesn't fix it anymore, not even for one lousy hour. the homefront is near perfection, because i have let most petty BS go... life is too short. now, if i could just find some concrete shoes...