man...
i feel like it's been fucking forever... maybe cuz i really don't have much to say.
life is still GRAND. i fucking love that word - ever since angie corridi signed my yearbook in junior high using it to describe me. i guess i was expecting the usual "stay sweet, K.I.T." haha.
work is good, although t told me yesterday that she was going to be letting c go... it's hard dude, her hubby doesn't even have a job, but whatever... it's not t's problem and it certainly happens, a lot. why prolong the obvious, right? she's good at all the computer stuff but she's just too quiet and mousy... not only for our customers, but for us. AND, the owner isn't too fond of her saying she sounds "barely alive" when she answers the phone... yeah. so, big changes... and i'm up for my raise in just under 2 weeks, fuckin-a YAY! i don't think the timing could be any more perfect! but along with that comes training someone else, AGAIN... fuck dude, i should get a gold fucking medal for training people - and a fatty bonus, it's not fucking fun and i hate it.
things with jenn are a bit better... i'm hoping she took our phone chat to heart. i dunno, but last night z came to pick me up with the intention of going to the gym... but then she said she wanted to make dinner and wait for jenn to get back from getting her haircut... i was so fucking tired and really didn't want to work out, but i went anyway - knowing that i should. i kinda knew it wasn't gonna happen, not unless we went straight there. hmmf. so yeah, jenn came in and said "MISS JENN - your hair is getting long!" she hasn't called me that in forever, it was kinda nice... but shhh, don't tell the bitch! then she came over and gave me a hug. we laughed so hard last night, it was great - i really hope things work out with the "live-ins", they make me smile... if only i could get them away from each other more often! i like my one on one time with people...
i've been trying to keep to myself as much as possible... i like my down time. just to think - or not - and do the things i love to do... like paint, and read, and lay on the floor with only candles lit listening to happy music such as bob marley. yeah, fucking stoner... whatever. i dance too, a lot... i wonder if anyone ever sees me from the other buildings, that would be kinda rad and kinda creepy all the same. the best thing ever would be to find a friend, a lover to share it all with... not all the time but some time.
i invited a over tonight to watch a movie... she's really very sweet and i bet she's a great cuddler... i was telling z last night that she was the kind i could just be fuck buddies with... but i dunno, i get the strangest feeling i could fall in love. that won't happen though, i won't let it... there are too many links that i don't want. and c... dear dear c.. fuck man, i can feel it in my bones... that bitch is gonna fuck me, but still... i pursue. why GOD, why??? i could be wrong, cuz i haven't met any one quite like her before, but... shit.
pinkos' birthday was the other day, i wrote her an email just to say have a happy one. i thought it was appropriate even though we aren't on speaking terms... i'm not an asshole and i wanted to do the right thing, so there. it could have opened lines of communication but i'm glad it didn't. i don't want that... not yet, and i've been wondering since cherry if i ever will.
tonight, i will clean. friday will be fun. saturday or sunday should be more fun. we'll see.
- p
life is still GRAND. i fucking love that word - ever since angie corridi signed my yearbook in junior high using it to describe me. i guess i was expecting the usual "stay sweet, K.I.T." haha.
work is good, although t told me yesterday that she was going to be letting c go... it's hard dude, her hubby doesn't even have a job, but whatever... it's not t's problem and it certainly happens, a lot. why prolong the obvious, right? she's good at all the computer stuff but she's just too quiet and mousy... not only for our customers, but for us. AND, the owner isn't too fond of her saying she sounds "barely alive" when she answers the phone... yeah. so, big changes... and i'm up for my raise in just under 2 weeks, fuckin-a YAY! i don't think the timing could be any more perfect! but along with that comes training someone else, AGAIN... fuck dude, i should get a gold fucking medal for training people - and a fatty bonus, it's not fucking fun and i hate it.
things with jenn are a bit better... i'm hoping she took our phone chat to heart. i dunno, but last night z came to pick me up with the intention of going to the gym... but then she said she wanted to make dinner and wait for jenn to get back from getting her haircut... i was so fucking tired and really didn't want to work out, but i went anyway - knowing that i should. i kinda knew it wasn't gonna happen, not unless we went straight there. hmmf. so yeah, jenn came in and said "MISS JENN - your hair is getting long!" she hasn't called me that in forever, it was kinda nice... but shhh, don't tell the bitch! then she came over and gave me a hug. we laughed so hard last night, it was great - i really hope things work out with the "live-ins", they make me smile... if only i could get them away from each other more often! i like my one on one time with people...
i've been trying to keep to myself as much as possible... i like my down time. just to think - or not - and do the things i love to do... like paint, and read, and lay on the floor with only candles lit listening to happy music such as bob marley. yeah, fucking stoner... whatever. i dance too, a lot... i wonder if anyone ever sees me from the other buildings, that would be kinda rad and kinda creepy all the same. the best thing ever would be to find a friend, a lover to share it all with... not all the time but some time.
i invited a over tonight to watch a movie... she's really very sweet and i bet she's a great cuddler... i was telling z last night that she was the kind i could just be fuck buddies with... but i dunno, i get the strangest feeling i could fall in love. that won't happen though, i won't let it... there are too many links that i don't want. and c... dear dear c.. fuck man, i can feel it in my bones... that bitch is gonna fuck me, but still... i pursue. why GOD, why??? i could be wrong, cuz i haven't met any one quite like her before, but... shit.
pinkos' birthday was the other day, i wrote her an email just to say have a happy one. i thought it was appropriate even though we aren't on speaking terms... i'm not an asshole and i wanted to do the right thing, so there. it could have opened lines of communication but i'm glad it didn't. i don't want that... not yet, and i've been wondering since cherry if i ever will.
tonight, i will clean. friday will be fun. saturday or sunday should be more fun. we'll see.
- p