happy day back from a really great vacation
mom and sis left yesterday morning, had been here since thursday... overall it was a good visit. we went to pike place a couple of times, went to the aquarium which was totally fun, went on a boat tour that was very insightful and went on the underground tour in pioneer square. we learned a whole lot about seattle and how it came about, much more fun than i thought it would be. i was actually glad sunday when we went that bumbershoot was going on since well, the streets were bare... it was raining too and i think it would have been more hectic and annoying had there been more people out and about.
i argued with my mom quite a bit after the first day but that was to be expected. i tried to keep it peaceful and came to find that i was only somewhat tolerable with the help of a fatty j. mom was at her wits end anyway so she at times told me to go smoke... she knows, been there done that i'm sure. so now i know that i am only given a hand at relaxing when i indulge and that the remainder of the chillage is left to me which, well, only works when i don't care and i always care unless i'm sick. a friend of p's informed her of a way to get antidepressants easily but it irritates me that i can't do it with the means i have (aka insurance at my current dr's)... and yet again if i feel i want and need these things i must become lesser of a person trying to do things right and not take what i don't need and more of a take what you can get cuz you get a lot more that way person. did that make sense???
so my boss bought us pizza today and i took a piece and came back to my desk while everyone else stayed and chats. i can hear them laugh and today only one sickens me still. i actually have some hope on the job front since chatting with my boss last wednesday. i am getting my review tomorrow and she was very responsive to the concerns i had. she assured me things would be taken care of and she wouldn't be so lienient on those who had trouble doing what they are actually here for... to work. this morning, ohhhh let me tell you... at our morning meetings we sit around my desk since i run the meetings so i have a phone at my fingertips. it's the customer service rep's job to answer said phone which is oh maybe 4 feet from where she sits during the meetings. most of the time i pick it up since i am right here as i did 3 time during the meeting. so were finishing up and just sitting here and the phone rings... i'm thinking ok, the meeting is over she can get it but instead she just sits there... one ring, two... i look at my boss with "the look" and grab the phone up irritated... knowing what i am thinking my boss asks the csr "are you alive today?" it's small, it's minute, it's HER FUCKING JOB!!! nuff said.
i bought p tickets to the tori amos concert this thursday. it's at a winery where we get to sit outside and sip the good stuff... since she has to drive i think i may get intoxicated, tori isn't a favorite of mine so i may need the help. don't get me wrong lesbians, i appreciate her music and the meaning behind it but it's just not for me. we can make it after work since it's only a few miles away, but with traffic... it's like an hour and a half drive... maybe i should leave a half hour early just to be safe... anyway, it's our anniversary friday... 1 year... so that is why i am willing to not only spend too much money on but sit and listen to something i have little interest in.
i found out on jenn's myspace profile today that she will be here on the 3rd of october... her gf is no longer so she will be moving solo... i think it's for the best although i shall not open my mouth much further since things change, especially in this here homosexual community, and i am liable to get my foot stuck permanately in it.
i have been having bad heartburn and as i finish the one and only piece of delicious romio's pizza i will have, i feel the all to familiar burning sensation starting in my esophagus. i love pizza.
hit me baby one more time.
i argued with my mom quite a bit after the first day but that was to be expected. i tried to keep it peaceful and came to find that i was only somewhat tolerable with the help of a fatty j. mom was at her wits end anyway so she at times told me to go smoke... she knows, been there done that i'm sure. so now i know that i am only given a hand at relaxing when i indulge and that the remainder of the chillage is left to me which, well, only works when i don't care and i always care unless i'm sick. a friend of p's informed her of a way to get antidepressants easily but it irritates me that i can't do it with the means i have (aka insurance at my current dr's)... and yet again if i feel i want and need these things i must become lesser of a person trying to do things right and not take what i don't need and more of a take what you can get cuz you get a lot more that way person. did that make sense???
so my boss bought us pizza today and i took a piece and came back to my desk while everyone else stayed and chats. i can hear them laugh and today only one sickens me still. i actually have some hope on the job front since chatting with my boss last wednesday. i am getting my review tomorrow and she was very responsive to the concerns i had. she assured me things would be taken care of and she wouldn't be so lienient on those who had trouble doing what they are actually here for... to work. this morning, ohhhh let me tell you... at our morning meetings we sit around my desk since i run the meetings so i have a phone at my fingertips. it's the customer service rep's job to answer said phone which is oh maybe 4 feet from where she sits during the meetings. most of the time i pick it up since i am right here as i did 3 time during the meeting. so were finishing up and just sitting here and the phone rings... i'm thinking ok, the meeting is over she can get it but instead she just sits there... one ring, two... i look at my boss with "the look" and grab the phone up irritated... knowing what i am thinking my boss asks the csr "are you alive today?" it's small, it's minute, it's HER FUCKING JOB!!! nuff said.
i bought p tickets to the tori amos concert this thursday. it's at a winery where we get to sit outside and sip the good stuff... since she has to drive i think i may get intoxicated, tori isn't a favorite of mine so i may need the help. don't get me wrong lesbians, i appreciate her music and the meaning behind it but it's just not for me. we can make it after work since it's only a few miles away, but with traffic... it's like an hour and a half drive... maybe i should leave a half hour early just to be safe... anyway, it's our anniversary friday... 1 year... so that is why i am willing to not only spend too much money on but sit and listen to something i have little interest in.
i found out on jenn's myspace profile today that she will be here on the 3rd of october... her gf is no longer so she will be moving solo... i think it's for the best although i shall not open my mouth much further since things change, especially in this here homosexual community, and i am liable to get my foot stuck permanately in it.
i have been having bad heartburn and as i finish the one and only piece of delicious romio's pizza i will have, i feel the all to familiar burning sensation starting in my esophagus. i love pizza.
hit me baby one more time.