i'm tired... endless crapola.
today was pretty bad, i slept til like 10 then went with mom to the bagel shop for lunch. we grabbed some movies, dropped by rite aid and came home.
i got into a really bad mood after talking to jenn. ya know how when you're talking to someone on the phone (who calls you) and they are not paying attention? well yeah, it seems every time i talk to her she's in a different world... answering slowly, asking questions and not listening to the answers...
i'm pmsing BAAAAD, and those of you who know me know what i'm like sometimes. i'm irritable, sad and just really want to be holed up somewhere with no one bothering me. p's room would be nice... with a dvd and cd player, paint and canvas, paper and lots of pens... coca-cola and peanut m&m's and popcorn, yeah!
i almost went out tonight with jenn and her lady, and some of her friends from work... but it's 18 and over night and the last thing i felt like doing was standing in the corner watching all of them grinding on each other to music i've never heard and most likely don't wanna hear... yeah, i'm being waaay negative - exactly why i changed my mind and stayed in.
i texted nicole, but she's in l.a. with her GF i think... said she was staying out there. i thought for an instant it'd be like old times, when i'd call her and she'd come over and let me cry in her arms... she was always good for that, but i guess i'm too old, we're too different and obviously not as close as we used to be.
i cried alone and took a nap in hopes i'd feel better, but i kept getting text messages from jenn... and someone in an area code i am not familiar with whom text messages me strange things. when i asked who it was they said maybe i've already told you and that they were a secret admirerer... yeah yeah. barf. i don't care, and since they aren't telling me who they are i'm assuming it's someone i'd most likely not talk to anyway.
we watched 3 movies tonight... i forgot the name of the first one but it was predictable and stupid. a good idea with a dumb plot line, blast! then taking lives with angelina jolie, i swear i'd seen it before but maybe it was just the previews i was remembering... mom went to bed and i just finished watching the magdelaine (sp?) sisters... what an awful movie, i mean it was good, but so fucking sad and terrible. oh my god, and not in a good way...
miss p called me just now. i miss her much and almost called her today when i was sad and crying but didn't wanna be a lame-o and be weird with her. (ok, run on sentence) anyhoo... we had a good chat, i feel better now even tho we never really talk about anything. i hope you have fun with julia tonight! i should have told her to give you a big hug and smooch for me (with tongue!) HAHAHA!!! =)
miss p: i'm glad you are able to be honest with me and i'm glad you say things you're thinking... i'm glad you're a dork, and i'm even (check out this language) GLADDER that you can be a dork with me. i want to smoke pot with you and laugh and be dumb and talk and talk and talk and talk and talk... ya know, we as people always find out so much about each other when we're loose with our guards down and able to just be.
blaaaaaaaaaah!
it's maren's birthday today, happy birthday sweetie!!! she just had her appendix removed and is bed ridden... poor baby, if i could visit i would and take care of you until you are better. she's moving to germany in 6 months, i hope she can visit before then...
tomorrow i am going up to jenn's in the great city of adelanto... HAHAHA, to get my eyes up to date. i have only tuesday to see nicole, she leaves for NY on thursday... the perfect day would consist of breakfast at mimi's, a movie at the theatre, dinner at the old sghetti factory (but we already did that) and a pot smoking sleepover... yay!
one outta four ain't bad???
time to catch my Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz's now... toodloo!!!
i got into a really bad mood after talking to jenn. ya know how when you're talking to someone on the phone (who calls you) and they are not paying attention? well yeah, it seems every time i talk to her she's in a different world... answering slowly, asking questions and not listening to the answers...
i'm pmsing BAAAAD, and those of you who know me know what i'm like sometimes. i'm irritable, sad and just really want to be holed up somewhere with no one bothering me. p's room would be nice... with a dvd and cd player, paint and canvas, paper and lots of pens... coca-cola and peanut m&m's and popcorn, yeah!
i almost went out tonight with jenn and her lady, and some of her friends from work... but it's 18 and over night and the last thing i felt like doing was standing in the corner watching all of them grinding on each other to music i've never heard and most likely don't wanna hear... yeah, i'm being waaay negative - exactly why i changed my mind and stayed in.
i texted nicole, but she's in l.a. with her GF i think... said she was staying out there. i thought for an instant it'd be like old times, when i'd call her and she'd come over and let me cry in her arms... she was always good for that, but i guess i'm too old, we're too different and obviously not as close as we used to be.
i cried alone and took a nap in hopes i'd feel better, but i kept getting text messages from jenn... and someone in an area code i am not familiar with whom text messages me strange things. when i asked who it was they said maybe i've already told you and that they were a secret admirerer... yeah yeah. barf. i don't care, and since they aren't telling me who they are i'm assuming it's someone i'd most likely not talk to anyway.
we watched 3 movies tonight... i forgot the name of the first one but it was predictable and stupid. a good idea with a dumb plot line, blast! then taking lives with angelina jolie, i swear i'd seen it before but maybe it was just the previews i was remembering... mom went to bed and i just finished watching the magdelaine (sp?) sisters... what an awful movie, i mean it was good, but so fucking sad and terrible. oh my god, and not in a good way...
miss p called me just now. i miss her much and almost called her today when i was sad and crying but didn't wanna be a lame-o and be weird with her. (ok, run on sentence) anyhoo... we had a good chat, i feel better now even tho we never really talk about anything. i hope you have fun with julia tonight! i should have told her to give you a big hug and smooch for me (with tongue!) HAHAHA!!! =)
miss p: i'm glad you are able to be honest with me and i'm glad you say things you're thinking... i'm glad you're a dork, and i'm even (check out this language) GLADDER that you can be a dork with me. i want to smoke pot with you and laugh and be dumb and talk and talk and talk and talk and talk... ya know, we as people always find out so much about each other when we're loose with our guards down and able to just be.
blaaaaaaaaaah!
it's maren's birthday today, happy birthday sweetie!!! she just had her appendix removed and is bed ridden... poor baby, if i could visit i would and take care of you until you are better. she's moving to germany in 6 months, i hope she can visit before then...
tomorrow i am going up to jenn's in the great city of adelanto... HAHAHA, to get my eyes up to date. i have only tuesday to see nicole, she leaves for NY on thursday... the perfect day would consist of breakfast at mimi's, a movie at the theatre, dinner at the old sghetti factory (but we already did that) and a pot smoking sleepover... yay!
one outta four ain't bad???
time to catch my Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz's now... toodloo!!!